Fighting a battle

I told dar that for the sake of my family I will fight this battle but I dont know how long can I do it. I am scared of losing everything that I have worked so hard for. I am very young and have a future ahead of me.

While I thought things have looked bad, I was given a big surprise on friday. I go for my yearly scanning, MRI and blood tests, but the result wasnt what my doctor or myself expected. Apparently the scanning results showed my tumors size has shrink to the acceptable range and I find it hard to accept this is good news. But just to be sure, blood test is required.

I had a hard time drawing blood and this process is really killing me. I've been poke three times with needles! Ouch! Maybe because I am scared, alone and lost -- very very lost, I had been crying during the whole drawing blood session! I hate this!

Anyways, we will see how it goes for the blood test results.

Thanks to all my friends - You all had been my pillar of strength and a wonderful one to start with.

Thanks to my beloved driver who send me home when I need him without failed! He gives me a life and I follow his surname :)

Thanks to my loving mum, she cooks tonic soup to replenish the blood loss and got me chicken esscence to show her tender loving care....

I had a life and a potential wonderful future! :) :) Jiayou

Carlsberg Gold

I came across this Carlsberg Gold beer during our weekend grocery shopping at Shop and Save, dar insists that i should give it a try and I will love it. As I wanted something smooth and this proves to the right and its tasty too. Tho its a bit costly. Priced is like 4-5 bucks higher than the normal one depending on where u get it. Anyway, I'm not the one paying afterall... LOL :)

Busy with work

Work had kept me so busy that I hardly have time to update this blog. There is so much to do at work so much that I am so looking forward to the long Raya break. I know we just had a long weekend but I still need to sleep in a lot more.

There are work pending and datelines to meet so I shall keep this short.
Just an update.

What a weekend

I had a splendid weekend. Ah En's mummy invited me over for BBQ last night which lasted till almost 12am. Although tedious it was fun - I am kind of enjoying the chores of BBQ-ing the food and experimenting with various ingredient one being BBQ-ing with another which turned out quite fun and tasty. Most important, this is a good event for bonding esp seeing everyone making an effort to make this event successful and fun. $50 is well-spent indeed.

Today I didnt even really go out. Stayed indoors most of today sleeping in. I like weekend like these where I can just laze around and not having to turn on my phone and sleep in as and when I fancy. Everyone happens to share the same interest. Tho, I dont get to go that many weekends because most other weekends there are chores to be done somehow - one being laundry.

For the moment, I only have to think of what to have for dinner. Should I heat up the leftover wings or just have bread? I am feeling kind of lazy and tired tonight. Maybe I should just go for bread - its healthier anyways.

Catching up

There is so much to update. I have been slacking on my entries these days because other things takes priority in my life.

Since my last update alot had happened some good some bad to me and here I am once again sharing my thoughts and bits and pieces of my life.

Work - had been stressful and am considering moving but nothing is in place the moment so am just hanging in there for now.

Relationship -For the moment, I can just pray and hope for the best.

Health- Whatever it takes, ,my health is more important. Work can always come by but not my health. I've been worried sick about my coming yearly "major" check up next month.

We will see. for now,I need to shut my eyes and rest.

"Attacked" by this massive migraine

For some reason or another, I was out for food this morning and a bit of grocery shopping when I was "attacked" by this massive migraine like headache so I had to come back to rest. The moment I came home, my remedy was to jump into a soothing hot shower (which usually works) but soon after I started this crazy about of vomitting so much that I could eat or drink because everything that goes in will come out within an hour or so.

I didnt want to get out of the house as it was really hot outside so instead I fell into deep sleep until a call from Nigel woke me up.

Am still not feeling too good, despite the sleep and yet another hot shower, but I think I can take food already because I had just downed a glass of milk and so far its so good *cross fingers*. I think I should get back to sleep as I can still feel the grogginess.

How time flies

OMG, time really flies. Its already July, half year has gone by. As I sit here, I reflect at how the first half of the year went for me.

Well, overall, the first half of 2009 had been rather promising. It was a mixture of feelings-sometimes happy sometimes not, which I believe to be part and parcel of life.

Sure, things hasnt been at all smooth sailing all the way. This year, I have manage to finally get a few things done.

I suppose the greatest achievement thus far is my weight loss, which has changed my life in a way or another. I just hope that I have the motivation to carry on when I had reached my ideal weight.

The thing is, suddenly there seemed to be so many things happening concurrently last week so much that I have to adjust my feeling accordingly. Perhaps the thought of losing a close kin got me thinking that maybe I should start a new life. Since what happened with god son I had not been crying so badly for a long time and suddenly last week and even as I write, I felt like crying

I really need a break. I need to go some place where I can find more serenity and peace without disturbance of daily routines or even emails, meetings, phone calls etc.....I just wanted to get away and relax for a while. 2-3 days wont do me any good. I need to take a really long break (like a month) something which I hadnt done in a long long time.

I believe what's important now is to get my life re-aligned back to how it was.