Fighting a battle

I told dar that for the sake of my family I will fight this battle but I dont know how long can I do it. I am scared of losing everything that I have worked so hard for. I am very young and have a future ahead of me.

While I thought things have looked bad, I was given a big surprise on friday. I go for my yearly scanning, MRI and blood tests, but the result wasnt what my doctor or myself expected. Apparently the scanning results showed my tumors size has shrink to the acceptable range and I find it hard to accept this is good news. But just to be sure, blood test is required.

I had a hard time drawing blood and this process is really killing me. I've been poke three times with needles! Ouch! Maybe because I am scared, alone and lost -- very very lost, I had been crying during the whole drawing blood session! I hate this!

Anyways, we will see how it goes for the blood test results.

Thanks to all my friends - You all had been my pillar of strength and a wonderful one to start with.

Thanks to my beloved driver who send me home when I need him without failed! He gives me a life and I follow his surname :)

Thanks to my loving mum, she cooks tonic soup to replenish the blood loss and got me chicken esscence to show her tender loving care....

I had a life and a potential wonderful future! :) :) Jiayou

Carlsberg Gold

I came across this Carlsberg Gold beer during our weekend grocery shopping at Shop and Save, dar insists that i should give it a try and I will love it. As I wanted something smooth and this proves to the right and its tasty too. Tho its a bit costly. Priced is like 4-5 bucks higher than the normal one depending on where u get it. Anyway, I'm not the one paying afterall... LOL :)

Busy with work

Work had kept me so busy that I hardly have time to update this blog. There is so much to do at work so much that I am so looking forward to the long Raya break. I know we just had a long weekend but I still need to sleep in a lot more.

There are work pending and datelines to meet so I shall keep this short.
Just an update.

What a weekend

I had a splendid weekend. Ah En's mummy invited me over for BBQ last night which lasted till almost 12am. Although tedious it was fun - I am kind of enjoying the chores of BBQ-ing the food and experimenting with various ingredient one being BBQ-ing with another which turned out quite fun and tasty. Most important, this is a good event for bonding esp seeing everyone making an effort to make this event successful and fun. $50 is well-spent indeed.

Today I didnt even really go out. Stayed indoors most of today sleeping in. I like weekend like these where I can just laze around and not having to turn on my phone and sleep in as and when I fancy. Everyone happens to share the same interest. Tho, I dont get to go that many weekends because most other weekends there are chores to be done somehow - one being laundry.

For the moment, I only have to think of what to have for dinner. Should I heat up the leftover wings or just have bread? I am feeling kind of lazy and tired tonight. Maybe I should just go for bread - its healthier anyways.

Catching up

There is so much to update. I have been slacking on my entries these days because other things takes priority in my life.

Since my last update alot had happened some good some bad to me and here I am once again sharing my thoughts and bits and pieces of my life.

Work - had been stressful and am considering moving but nothing is in place the moment so am just hanging in there for now.

Relationship -For the moment, I can just pray and hope for the best.

Health- Whatever it takes, ,my health is more important. Work can always come by but not my health. I've been worried sick about my coming yearly "major" check up next month.

We will see. for now,I need to shut my eyes and rest.

"Attacked" by this massive migraine

For some reason or another, I was out for food this morning and a bit of grocery shopping when I was "attacked" by this massive migraine like headache so I had to come back to rest. The moment I came home, my remedy was to jump into a soothing hot shower (which usually works) but soon after I started this crazy about of vomitting so much that I could eat or drink because everything that goes in will come out within an hour or so.

I didnt want to get out of the house as it was really hot outside so instead I fell into deep sleep until a call from Nigel woke me up.

Am still not feeling too good, despite the sleep and yet another hot shower, but I think I can take food already because I had just downed a glass of milk and so far its so good *cross fingers*. I think I should get back to sleep as I can still feel the grogginess.

How time flies

OMG, time really flies. Its already July, half year has gone by. As I sit here, I reflect at how the first half of the year went for me.

Well, overall, the first half of 2009 had been rather promising. It was a mixture of feelings-sometimes happy sometimes not, which I believe to be part and parcel of life.

Sure, things hasnt been at all smooth sailing all the way. This year, I have manage to finally get a few things done.

I suppose the greatest achievement thus far is my weight loss, which has changed my life in a way or another. I just hope that I have the motivation to carry on when I had reached my ideal weight.

The thing is, suddenly there seemed to be so many things happening concurrently last week so much that I have to adjust my feeling accordingly. Perhaps the thought of losing a close kin got me thinking that maybe I should start a new life. Since what happened with god son I had not been crying so badly for a long time and suddenly last week and even as I write, I felt like crying

I really need a break. I need to go some place where I can find more serenity and peace without disturbance of daily routines or even emails, meetings, phone calls etc.....I just wanted to get away and relax for a while. 2-3 days wont do me any good. I need to take a really long break (like a month) something which I hadnt done in a long long time.

I believe what's important now is to get my life re-aligned back to how it was.

Nuisance call!!!

It was a phone call @ around 12 midnight.

Following is the conversation we had:

???: Hey Bitch, what do u think u are doing?
Me: huh!!! Who are you? Did you dial the correct number???
???: You've not right to ask! Look at it this way, if u want, u could have got a better married man...but why someone who's struggling and has a happy family? I never felt so much pain in my whole life. He lied to me very often and beat me very often. When I asked him why, he said I had no grounds to complain about his dishonesty.
Me: Excuse me miss, i do not have any patience with you anymore unless you tell me who are you and what are you talking abt?
???: He only gives EMPTY PROMISES, MORE LIES to you.
Me: I'm going to report police for this nuisance call.
???: Okay then, if that's what you want. I wish you the best but remember, retribution will always be around you! Because he would SMS me to find out if I'd eaten or needed a ride home from work recently.
Me: Crazy woman!!!*Hang up the call!!!*
???:Continue screaming at her high pitch tone voice......................................................


It was a nightmare esp with her irritated voice. What a nuisance call!
I guess she should sought help from a counsellor.

Personality test

I found a a personality test in facebook.It says I am a Harmony Seeking Idealist - which is rather true to certain extent.

Yes, I confine my deepest and darkest thoughts with a selected few whom I trust and yes, permanent relationships are an important component in my life. I am no longer young and vain or naive enough to move halfway across the world with a man not knowing where/what my future really holds. I have to think very hard, after all, the man have to be my pillar of strength in life and not vice verse and whom I know I can depend on.

Holiday mood

For some reason or another my heart isnt in the office nor the work that I have to complete before I go on leave. Yes...I will be on leave tomorrow for 4 days. While I am very pleased I had to survive another month end with Linda's absence. I am in the holiday mood and looking forward to this well deserved break and to spending quality time with my loved ones:)

Sometimes I just simply wish to throw in the towels at work. I know the market is really bad, we have to work extra hard but I am tired...

At this moment, I would like to be a full-time homemaker, I know with what every man is making right now seem not possible and besides its not what every man would have wanted. While they wanted in a woman are those who can cook and take care of the house at the time it would be "nice" if the other partner can bring in the extra money so both of them dont have to struggle and can have a luxury life.

Anyway, I dont know how long will I be able to handle this but for the moment I am just enjoying the break....

Should the Guy Always Pay the Bill for Dates?

I had a conversation with J over the phone few days ago. She confides one of the r/s issue some of us might faces.
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J: Girl, I couldnt tahan him anymore, he want equality extends to everything. He expects me to pay my share on a date.
Me: huh.....erm....You could always split the bill, but I think it’s more fun to give him a treat once a while. No harm trying.
J: Wei....It’s the guy’s job to be the provider, dont you think so?
Me: Ya, but if you are counting every cents to keep it all even, its never going to work out in the end anyway.
J: OH HELL NO. The friggin guy should always pay what!!
Me: Aiyo, I think it’s sweet if the guy wants to pay, but I would never expect it. It’s nice when a man is a genleman and is just NICE loh...
J: Girl, do you have this issues or not?
Me: Most of the time the guy won’t let me pay for dinner de loh.....
J: Wah liew, you're really a lucky girl man!!! What’s wrong with my guy?
Me: I think that the answer is simple. You give what you can la... I guess they can probably tell that I spent a lot in my SK II products ,so if they afford to foot the bills, why not loh...
J: You wont understand de, I don’t want “equality”...When I was dating, my policy was that I wouldn’t date someone again if they expected me to pay.
Me: Argh! Why do you want to make everyone stress about this? I’m not saying a guy or girl can’t treat, but never ever expect it. You can always asked him to pays when going out to eat. HOWEVER, not on a regular basic, maybe twice a week. You can pay for all of the groceries, food stuff, snacks or get him something that he needs (like herbal tea during bad weather or socks if you see a hole)or shower him with presents or gifts. It will works well for both of you, and I think it’s fair.
J: aha.. sound gd hor.... Woman love to shop for guys too... You finally sort out my though...
Me: Aiyo, give and take is more impt! If he pay for the date then it’s great for you but do appreciate the gesture k...
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New phone

I finally got a new phone, the Samsung Omnia i900, which is really cool. I am already having lots of fun with it at the same time learning to use its features.




I havent gotten around to take a photo of it though some of the photos taken with the phone had been uploaded on my album.

Sheer indecisiveness

I look forward to going out this weekend but today he told me that he's not sure if he wanted to go without any reason why and that he expects me to know. By him saying that, I already more or less know that we wont be making planning to anywhere at all.

At this point, because everything with him is on pending status, I cant even plan for my own schedule. Sometimes I just understand why he cant make up his mind over something as simple as this, like how enthusiastic he was about going out with me.

Because he is undecisive, I figured that at the end I'd probably end up staying home over the weekend because everything else would either be too expensive or fully booked that there isnt anywhere else really to go.

Guess I need to look into delta(which means back up plan)! I need to de-stress!!!

We shall see how it goes.

Back at work

I came back to work yesterday although not fully recovered but I know I cant afford to rest anymore at home as my bosses probably wont like it. Besides there's alot of things I need to follow up. I came back to work finding 167 emails in my mailbox, which is alot but manage to get them all answered.

However, my brain isnt working as well as I would like to as I am still tired. For some reason or another, my entire body is aching is mad and I wished someone was here to give me that much needed massage.....................

Shoes

Like most women, I have this thing for shoes. I do have alot of shoes some of which only worn once some never. I got this habit from my mum. Mum used to owns 9 cabinets full of shoes back home. Being her only daughter, I guess it is only fair that I got this habit from her.

Why does a woman have to have so many pairs of shoes?

Because we wanted to match with the multi-colored clothes which we own. Sometimes I even ask myself why do I keep buying shoes? I just simply go crazy when I see shoes that fits me. I think was only a natural progressive after grown up. I accumulated more shoes when I started working since there's nothing much to do except shopping then. It doesnt help as well that I always went out with someone who loves shopping and shoes equally.

I had 3 big boxes (similiar to those DHL 25kg jumbo box) filled with shoes (that's after throwing/giving away some). Most of these shoes, are currently stacked in another cabinet in my room for reasons that these are rather out of trend shoes to wear now or not really suit me now.

Due recent recession and pay cut, seeing the shoes at the sales made me go crazy. In the end I have to make a choice. I am certainly going back for somemore after this period is over....hehe...its hard to resist shoe shopping...haha...

Thoughts on Dad

I know Father's day is still like another few weeks away. Here goes my post on my dad.
Being his only daughter, it was obvious to people who knew the family that I was his "little princess", always is and always will be, I know that for a fact.

Because my dad spent most part of his young life providing for the father, I didnt get that close to him until I finished secondary school. That's when I began to see things through his perspective.

As I grew older, I find myself becoming closer to both my parents particularly my dad. I find myself missing him more than ever these days, so unlike previously I speak to my dad (or rather my parents) at least 5 times a week if not daily.

When I was much younger, example: in my sec school days, I could not understand why dad restricted me from doing some things but now when I think back, I find myself being very thankful for his "protectiveness", otherwise, I would not be who or where I am today.

Being an only daughter, I admit that my dad was a bit protective of me. I didnt go to a formal party until I was about 21 or so and my curfew was 10pm and my mummy called my friend's house every 30 minutes to check on me. I was embarassed by that fact then but then I realised now that they are doing it all for my own good and because they love me.

Over the last few years, I was taken aback by how much more liberal my dad had been. When my mum started questioning me about relationship and my intentions to eventually settle down, dad chided mum and told her to let me decide myself.

Sometimes I think could it because of age that he no longer want to bother about my life or it is because he trust me?? Curious on a recent phone conversation, I asked him this question to which he replied, "It is not age, its because I trust you know what's right and wrong and what matters to me is that as always you make me feel so proud of you." It was nice to hear such encouraging words from someone who barely spoke.

My dad always say that "no where is better than home", if "no man can provide you with a safe and warmth home, i can".... My dad will always be the first person I run back to when I am faced with problems. All my life, he had been the person who is the first to celebrate my successes and heal my failures.

The bond which I started with my dad cannot be ever replaced even by anything else. Once, my bf asked if i were given a choice between him or my dad. My replied to him is, i would have choosen my dad anytime because I know that he will never let me walk through life's alone.

Perhaps it is time for each and everyone of us to reflect on our dad and to appreciate the many things that he had done for us.

To my dad and all Father's out there, Happy Father's Day (in advance) and have fun!

Lazy Monday

For some reason or another, I am feeling very lazy today. I am not in the mood for anything at all not even really to do work. All I wanted to do is sleep. I went to bed at about 10 last night but throughout the night, my phone had been beeping with smses and calls, which woke me up and...my phone has this very annoying white blinking light.

Maybe it is time for another retreat.....Someone had promised that we'll go somewhere one of the weekends in June during the school holidays. Am keeping my fingers crossed for the moment.

Balloon Flower

Ah...it felt so nice! Finally, the long awaited day is here. Last fri was my last working day of the week and I am happy about it.

I had a great time on last Fri where I had manage to catch up with some friends over dinner. And oh yes, a very good friend of mine Jx had just gotten me a purple color balloon flower... I was really surprised! Such good friend he is er?



I had sooo much fun although I didn't really got any appetite during dinner but the company had been fun and entertaining. I am always blessed with many good friends

What if

He had left his handphone in the car few months back and while scrolling thru the numerous smses I found a few from his ex. While I have no problem with them still keeping in touch,I secretly harbour on the fact that she wont come back especially not after I've worked so hard at making the relationship work.

In one of the sms, she asked him for help, with what exactly I dont know and he responded that he will help her. That itself is heartbreaking but then I could be a bit paranoid because he might be just helping as a friend but...I dont know.

He did mention she is just a mutual friend that wants to borrow car or things like that am not sure. Am still not feeling too good abt it after months....

Labour Day

Great labour day for me... I went out to Jing Xuan's full month celebration at Jurong West with my poly friends. The house was so packed and overwhelming with friends, relatives and colleagues. Baby Jing Xuan was so tired because she didnt get any sleep in the afternoon.She slept throughout the evening and we gdidnt get any chance to play with her. Baby Jing Xuan is so lucky, Aunt Amy spent her half day leave shop around to get a present for you. Hope you will like it.

Jing Xuan is coming to 4kg... RBelow is her pic.



This is a small present for you and an ang pow for your daddy & mummy. Be a good girl!



Then we proceeded for drinks at Mind Cafe located at Purvis Street. I had not been there for a long long time, like 2 years so I was game for it. The crowd was nice just that the crowd was a bit too much for me and the catch up session was great and not too much on the high side.

Had so much fun I will be doing this kind of thing again when all of us can find time......:) Here's to a great weekend ahead!!!

Birthday surprise!!!

I am blessed with many good friends, even friends who would painstaking to do a "special pic of me with cute guy" that surprise me in a different way..

Slowly more and more surprises starts to be revealed...and they bought me an Agnes B Pale Pink Nylon Sling and yes, i need it! They're really sweeeeeetttttttttttttt.....Although the surprise was simple it was really a nice gesture from so many good friends so I figured more or less that I must have a very special place in their heart for them to do such things. :) A BIG thanks girls!

This year I celebrate yet another milestone in my life journey and of course I celebrate the many things associated with me especially my thriving relationship and growing friendships. Most of all, I celebrate the notion of being myself and having the courage to live life the way it is.

Phone call

As I was happily enjoying my quiet evening at home, XXX smsed me...." Hi Amy, can u pls call me back..URGENT!!" I contemplated for a while to call or not to call. He had never sent me an sms like that when we together years ago. The bold URGENT sounded like a call for help. I didnt call him back. An hour plus after the sms he missed call me expecting me to return the call as I always did and again, I contemplated if it was the right thing to do at all.

After much thought and pondering I succumb the other side of me, I called him back but he didnt answer and for a moment, Many things came to my mind then and all the sudden I felt that guilt of not responding to his call if he really need help. But then I knew I couldnt blame myself because he made me make the decision I did.

Finally after my 2nd attempt he answered the phone and told me that he fell asleep. So I asked him what is so urgent that he wanted me to call him back immediately. He said its because he suddenly missed me and felt like hearing my voice. He couldnt accept the fact that there are guys around me. Funny! He is obviously playing psychology game with me. Why is it that he still cannot let me go properly?? And why is it that he doesnt understand that things arent possible between us? Why is that he doesnt understand that?

I just held on to the phone quietly and finally told him I that its no use telling me all these now and that there is a limit to my patience and tolerance. Then he started to cry knowing that it will melt my heart in the past but I am truly proud of myself now because I dont even give a darn to his crocodile tears, he is just another jerk that scare of lonely. I TOLD him that we are OVER few years back, I simply just hung up the phone - I know its rather rude of me but I didnt have a choice then. Besides, he is getting annoying! Another selfish guy-.-"

I am not about to change my mobile number because of one person. It wont be fair to the many other hundred people who have my mobile number!!!

New toy

I got a new face toner. Its an OTO FT-110 Face Toner and so far performance had been great. Its a gift from someone special. Its practical and I needed one anyways.

The face toner's really cool and I am having a lot of fun with it. I havent been taking enough care for my skin recently. This face toner help to redefine my skin texture and facial muscle toning. It is safe, easy to use and hope it it effective too...



The unit comes with 5 interchangeable heads(for smoothing face toner, energizing face toner, contour massage, exfoliation brush and cleansing sponge) for different massaging and toning actions.

No matter how good your skincare products, they must be used with regular facial exercise to maintain the base muscle of my skin. I'm looking to maintain my youthful looks... hehe...

Sunday night at Timbre

This past Sunday I went to Timbre with some friends. It was as always an interesting experience because you never know who you will meet there.

But the heavy rain in the late evening had sort of dampen my mood and I suppose alot of people's as well. The truth was when I was at Orchard I contemplated whether to proceed to Timbre or not but since I promised my friends, I went anyways.

And it proofed to be a right decision as I had a lot of fun. At the same, I've got to know quite a bit of people. However, there was this other guy who came up to me and asked for my number and wanted me to go outside with him, which obviously I didnt and he had the guts to bluntly ask me if I wanted to be his gf.

Fortunately for me, I have many good friends to protect me. They push him and warn him to stay away from me. At that moment is not only the gentleman act but I felt the warmth and security.

Overall, I had lots of fun at Timbre though I knew I had to wake up the next morning for my check up at TMC but it was so fun I stayed on till closing time, and Jason gives me a ride home to my door step.

Thank You!!! Muacks!

Thank you everyone for celebrating my 28th birthday with me and your warm birthday wishes. I felt the warmth and touched.

Thank you again.

Happy birthday to me!! 7th April!!

Well...today is my birthday. Had a great party last night which lasted till almost 11plus but thank God, I am on leave today and tomorrow. Am going to spend some quality time with all my friends. Its really a rare thing that some of them make an effort to spend my birthday with me because they knew it was important to me.

Spending money

What do you do when you are down/depressed or totally stressed out? When the daily routines & events in your life goes upside down? While most people I know would drink till they get drunk and sleep through that misery hoping they'll forget when they awaken the next day, while I also know of some people who cry it all out each time they cant take that pressure of keeping everything inside, also some who eat alot more than they should......



For me, I spend money to get rid of that feeling, many times buying things (that include food stuff) that I don't ever need. I think that's why my entire wardrobe is full of clothes that I hardly ever wear, shoe racks filled with shoes that I wear only once or twice, some never and bags that I hardly use.



So, most of the time when I am down, I will throng the shopping malls going on the mad shopping spree, which can be rather scary but yet, like blogging I found that therepeutic. It made me feel better.



That's also the reason why I hardly if ever, does Spring cleaning because I'll have so much stuff I dont even know what to dispose of or rather I'd not want to dispose of it. This habit of mine is not like its life and death situation but I do realise that I do need some sort of help to curb it before I burn a bigger hole in my bank accounts.



While I enjoy travelling, the only reason I hardly ever do anymore now is because I am afraid of spending excessively when I travel no matter where. I think I got this "habit" which is buying a lot of sandles, slippers, heels n etc but hardly ever touch and finds thrill in just buying them. But I got some stuff and that made me feel alot better.



*sigh* How to help myself???

Prelude to birthday

4 more days and I will be turning 28. While others frown at that fact, I am looking forward to it. Like I told NK, when I am in my 20s its like I'm in between a girl and woman but at 28 I am a "real woman" meaning I get a better hang of myself and enjoying more of womanhood. So, I am all grown up now. That also means, more responsibilities and more pressures to settle down from family and friends...!

The next few days will be filled with celebrations. I've been getting sms from friends asking what I want for birthday this year... My answer to them is nothing because this is not a good year and recession/retrenchment is going on. I rather they save it up for rainy days. I really appreciate their thoughts.

Its been a long time since I had celebrated my birthday in that way especially after what happened years ago. I remembered the years ago, my birthdays were always celebrated in another country-Bangkok, Hong Kong, KL, Batam, Bali and NYC, and made sure that the planes land on the morning of my birthday.

All along birthdays is just another day, it is always friends who decides that they want to celebrate it with me and that itself is really sweet. Otherwise, I wont even bother celebrating it.

What do I wish for this birthday? Well...lets save this post for another time (maybe the actual day???). Am looking forward to all the fun of catching up with people.....

Flaring anger

I am known to be someone who has always cant be calm in most of my dealings - even my workmates said that. Yes, this is true. My anger will flare when challenged. Sadly tho, I dont know how to write with that angry emotion so I'll just write as usual.

Why full of anger? Its a very long story that I would rather not mention too much. I am so angry now I could scold anyone who steps on my tail. All this while I had taken it with a piece of salt but it doesnt mean I dont bother.

I just dont bother arguing with idiots like her because it will be a waste of time. She thinks just because I dont ever defend myself she can keep doing. I am just being patience. One day she will get it from me or better still God.

Migraine Headache-It's kiiling me

I'm having terrible headache on both Fri and Sat...I hate it as migraine is much more than a bad headache and throbbing headache usually felt on one side of my head. The pain may also shift from side to side.This time round accompanied by severe vomiting, and extreme sensitivity to smell, light and sound. It's really spolit my moods. I believe my migrance is trigger by stress as im having a hard week at work and bright lights/sun glare. Some of my friends who knows me well understand why i always mention "见光着死" in 2 diff terms 。 光 can damage my face so i will try to avoid it and 光 can trigger my migraine too. Secondhand smoke may provoke my migraines further headache pain. This is one of the worst relapse i ever had... It had been 4 years back since the last relapse. It's killing me:(



Nothing else matters, every other concern in the world takes a back seat to getting rid of the pain. I have to turn out the lights, pull shades and close the curtains. Then lay down comfortably on the bed with two pillows by my side. Simply relaxing in a dark, quiet room is often enough to quickly alleviate my migraine headaches. YES! I need total darkness.. Stay away for those smells and noise that irritates me further...... FINALLY, fall asleep till the next morning........... This is a way for me to relieve from migraine headache pain.



Large chicken breast or fillet white fish or lean red meat are recommended for people who suffer from migraine headaches. So the next Sat morning, he brought me fish porridge and deliver it to my door step in the shortest time he could. Heartfelt and sincere, thanks for everything you have ever done.



I feel much better after two days resting at home... Phew! It's finally over.........

What makes a BEST partner

A colleague sent me this, which I thought was quite meaningful and I cant help but ponder how many of this does my partner qualify.

1.Someone who knows what you need before you say it.
2.Someone who knows when to laugh and when to cry.
3.Someone who truly listens when you have something to say.
4.Someone that’s there for you during the good and bad times.
5.Someone who is caring.
6.Someone who is interested in reality and not as a fashion display.
7.Someone who is honest.
8.Someone you can trust them as a sibling, confide in like a friend but most of all, love as the great lover they are.
9.Someone who is open and responsive.
10.Someone who is never critical and ill-tempered in respect to your needs.
11.Someone who knows when things have to be compromised in the relationship.
12.Someone who understands listening is the key, but using what is heard is even more important.
13.Someone who’s there for you no matter what.
14.Someone who is trustful. Someone who is a friend.
15.Someone who gives a shoulder to cry on.
16.Someone with a great sense of humor.
17.Someone who has things in common with you.
18.Someone who takes time to listen and enjoy you for who you are and tries not to make you something else.
19.Someone with a constant open ear, open heart, and open mind to accept and love people for who they really are.
20.Someone who always be there to support your ideas without argument and love you for everything that you are.
21.Someone that can get a point across without yelling.
22.Someone that remembers all the cute stupid stuff you love.
23.Someone that has a personality with qualities you don’t have yourself, but admire greatly in them.
24.Someone who realizes you’re two separate people, and appreciate the differences.
25.Someone who can sense a mood problem, and not take it personally.
26.Someone who understands the difference between PMS, and a real problem.
27.Someone who can make you happy when you’re sad.
28.Someone who tells you the truth even if you don’t want to hear it.
29.Someone who will not hurt you intentionally.
30.Someone who is a sweet, romantic person who cherish you no matter what.
31.Someone that you can laugh with.
32.Someone who you can feel comfortable with and that you don’t care what kind of weird stuff they see you do because you know they will still love you no matter what.
33.Someone who will love you in spite of your little idiosyncrasies.
34.Someone that would do anything to show you how much they care.
35.Someone who is a great pal, a great kisser, and a great lover!
36.Someone who allows you to be yourself around them.
37.Someone who will respect you. Someone who cherishes your hopes and is kind to your dreams.
38.Someone who knows you’re not perfect, but treats you as though you are.
39.Someone who listens with their heart and is your source of inspiration.
40.Someone who loves you with all their heart and soul.

I believed the guy I chose should meet most of the quality that makes him my best partner:p

Enjoying serenity of home

The long weekend was a welcoming change from the stressful time I had at work. I had looked forward to this long weekend as a time for me to rest, relax and rejuvenate but sadly I could do it as well as I would have loved to.

There arent many weekends that I spend on my own at home. Most weekends mum is at home with me or I will be out for shopping or gathering.

For some reason, I am enjoying the serenity of home today. Maybe because is raining day and I am too lazy to go out. Managed to catch some beauty sleep too.




Now I am chilling out at home thinking what to do the rest of today.

Give Up Your Seat for the needy!

How do you know who to give your seat to on the MRT ?

The loose guideline is what’s printed on signs: “Please offer this seat to someone who needs it more than you do.”

We know that “someone who needs it more than you do” typically refers to the elderly, the pregnant and the handicapped.

But why are people giving up their seat to me??? I'm not even pregnant!!! I know there is no fixed rule and we’re supposed to make intuitive judgement calls case by case.

I encountered this case mutiple times. I have been mistaken a couple of times for being pregnant on the MRT : Someone had offered his seat to ME! I glared at him and said, “I’m not pregnant!”. I'm just happens to have a very large belly. Yes, I feel offended. You caused so much embarrassment for ME when you offer your seat to ME, wrong person! So sickening!

Please STOP eyeing@@ at my large belly!!!

爱就一个字 By 張信哲

It's a really beautiful song when i listen this again from FM933... Wow! This is an old song in my xxx days..

爱就一个字。
美好的回忆只有一次。
眼泪却可以一直流下去。



拨开天空的乌云
像蓝丝绒一样美丽
我为你翻山越岭
却无心看风景
我想你身不由己
每个念头有新的梦境
但愿你没忘记
我永远保护你
不管风雨的打击全心全意
两个人相互辉映
光芒胜过夜晚繁星
我为你翻山越岭却无心看风景
我想你鼓足勇气凭
爱的地图散播讯息
但愿你没忘记
我永远保护你
从此不必再流浪找寻
爱就一个字我只说一次
你知道我只会用行动表示
烟花太放肆守住了坚持看
我为你孤注一掷
爱就一个字我只说一次
恐怕听见的人勾起了相思
任老的城市搜索你的影子
让你幸福我愿意试
让你幸福是我一生在乎的事

Interesting Conversation with my god-son!

I had an interesting conversation with my god son over the phone today.

He was munching halfway thru his mouthful of cheeseburger while having a conversation with me:
He asked: 乾-Mummy, why you didnt bring bibi(refering to him) out shop shop huh?
I replied: Because I'm busy work work, no work work cannot bring bibi shop shop. So be good boi k.
He replied: Okay!
He asked:乾-Mummy, can I ask you a question?
I replied:Yes bibi, what is it?
He asked:Can I marry you? (Huh??... I burst out laughing and said tenderly to him. )
I replied: Bibi, 乾-Mummy loves you very much and I'm very happy you wanna marry me but 乾-Mummy can't marry you.
He asked:But why 乾-Mummy ? Why can't you marry me? Then I can't marry anybody else. I just want to marry you, 乾-Mummy . You're my Darling 乾-Mummy!

So sweet of him right?
I proceeded to explain what 'marry' is but as to how much he absorbed my explanation...

I said:乾-Mummy is really getting old and looked ugly.So you cant marry old woman.
He replied:You are not ugly, you are so beautiful. You look like a Princess!!

He is always so sweet to me.

One Hundred i

100 things about i that you may be reading for the first time:

100. i love reading.

99. i have heights phobia.

98. i wear my watch on my left hand.

97. i hate the sight and smell of blood.

96. i do not like caterpillars, maggots, worms and all that stuffs.

95. i hate washing toilets.

94. i love chocolate ice-cream with thin waffles.

93. i do not take cockles.

92. i once talked to my senior in school for 8 hours straight - until 4am in the morning!

91. i do not take beef and raw stuff.

90. i love to cook but hate washing up after that.

89. i eat blanched brocolli to lose weight.

88. i like to have a lot of freedom.

87. i like spicy food.

86. i like green tea.

85. i also like wheatgrass drink.

84. i like purple color.

83. i prefer to drink plain water when it's warm because it tastes funny when it's at room temperature.

82. i once sewed a kimono dress for my barbie doll.

81. i look fugly and scary when i woke up in the morning.

80. i must shower at least twice everyday.

79. i like to have gathering and catch up session with my friends and peers.

78. i like putting the clothes in the washing machine for washing but hate taking them out for hanging.

77. i curse when i'm crossed.

76. i do not watch ghost movies.

75. i don't own any asset now.

74. i like to be alone. Sometimes.

73. i can make my own fruit drink but i think it tastes weird.

72. i don't like men who secretly steal glances at other girls when they are with their partners.

71. i like men with a good sense of humour because i'm a full-of-nonsense-girl.

70. i like flowers, just not chrysanthemun.

69. i like gadgets (not those chain, handcuffs or whip types, ok).

68. i don't like men who come too close to me when they are talking. i don't like to breathe in what they breathe out!

67. i enjoy going to the movies.

66. i love dim sum. Typical Cantonese gal.

65. i love Mos Burger' french fries.

64. i can drive really well. My driving-instructors think otherwise.

63. i don't like to make the first move on a guy even if i like him. (i'm still stuck in my mother's time)

62. i'm smart. Like totally smart! I'm his smartie.

61. i like Christmas.

60. i like to shop alone when im down.

59. i love heels from Charles & Keith.

58. i eat to live but sometimes i think i live to eat!

57. i hate cockcroaches. Will scream like mad when i saw it.

56. i won't bite unless i find you really offensive.

55. i like Jay Chou songs.

54. i want to try Detoxing. Can lose a few pounds you know.

53. i like to watch movies that have very good-looking male leads and very beautiful female-leads. All the male leads must either be very very rich or very very powderful and the female leads must either be very very poor or outcasts. Ahh, you can bring in the popcorn now!

52. i love Barney, the purple dinosaur.(My fav color)

51. i'm quite observant.

50. i've strong feeling.

49. i used to have twelve suitors all at one go. (when im 21 and 2 years back)

48. i always have strong craving for teh c siu dai.

47. i can boil very delicious soup.

46. i love myself.

45. i love to eat cooked veggie.

44. i have phobia in learning swimming.

43. i love steamed corn with lot of margerine.

42. i don't like to work.

41. i like SK II. That's why i have "ok" skin complexion.

40. i like to eat baked bean with hot dog and scramble egg for breakfast.

39. i'm good at reading minds.

38. i don't like to sleep alone.

37. i can down ten cans of green tea in five minutes. i know i am Amazing!

36. i pray everyday that money can drop from the sky.

35. i love chocolates esp those with nuts.

34. i love Coach and LV.

33. i love desserts.

32. i am super good at acting (only to uninteresting-over-eager male species in pub).

31. i laugh easily.

30. i'm scared of ghosts, monsters, spirits, etc.

29. i read the wall street journal.

28. i can talk and listen at the same time. Again, i am Amazing.

27. i look good in black.

26. i think all men should help out in houseworks.

25. i always get irritated with those high pitch voice.

24. i like mature thinking men. Really!

23. i actually enjoy sleeping during the movies.

22. i love plain food because i have nothing better to eat or when im sick.

21. i'm very good at maths but not those financial theory.

20. i enjoy cleaning up my room.

19. i love bamboo rice.

18. i believe that if i unskin an apple at 12midnite while looking into the mirror, i'll see my future partner.

17. i like licking my fingers, especially after having KFC.

16. i can set your heart on fire with just one stare.

15. i enjoy plane rides.

14. i think men who help out with houseworks are really cute.

13. i am funny.

12. i've got two temporary tattoos before.

11. i can spend hours at the supermarket.

10. i cry easily. Esp during PMS.

09. i undergo 6 months physiotherapy before.

08. i can be fierce at times.

07. i do not like to fight over thing with others.

06. i can't tolerance betrayal.

05. i don't enjoy eating popcorn unless i'm at the movies.

04. i can make you remember me forever.

03. i can also make myself forget about you at the same time.

02. i'm currently having a hard time overcome something but i'm not telling you what's happen!!

01. do you actually believe all that you read here??=)

Haha.. that was my "One Hundred i" list i did sometime in 2009 on my blog.

Relationship being like a piece of blank paper

A quote from someone.

about relationship being like a piece of blank paper. Both of you starts with a clean sheet of paper and initially both of you will be happily writing your story on it. Over time, one may be tired and write less and the other party has to put in extra effort and fill in the space. Sometimes, it might be the other way round and one party have to compromise or give in or put more effort to ensure the words keep flowing. If either party chooses to stop writing or chooses to write on another piece of paper, the story just can't go on. It's as simple as that.

Shallow, The Name Is Man

I do wonder sometimes, what men are looking for in a woman?
Quite often, I am asked what I am looking for in a man, so how about me turning the table around and ask you guys instead?

From these 5Bs, namely: Beauty, Body, Boobs, Butts, Brain, which will you be most interested in? Oh, most of my guy friends give me the crap that personality is most important.. However I know this might not be the true answer, men are indeed shallow when it comes to women. Of course, not all of them.

Who doesn't like a pretty face? I will also take a second look if I walk past a 'handsome' man. Beauty is quite subjective. What you think is beautiful may look like 'ship wreckage' to another! Truthfully, I think first impression counts. At least if I like how you look, I won't find you annoying to begin with!

Few months back, I was at a pub with my sis and her friends. When she went to the ladies, a guy came over with his friend and started chatting me up.

He asked me:

HIM: "What is a pretty girl like you doing here alone?"
ME: "I am with a friend and she just happened to visit the ladies"
HIM:"Are you a local?"

ME:"No, not exactly" (Well, well, I decide to play along a little . . .)
HIM:"Where are you from?"
ME:"Taiwan" I answered..
HIM:"No wonder. You have nice features and your eyes are big. Most Taiwanese girls are very beautiful. So what are you doing here, on holiday or you're staying here?"

ME:"Holiday with my family"
HIM:"Errrr… as in husband or?"
ME:"Yes, with my husband"

HIM:"Oh..your husband is one lucky guy but where is he"
ME:"He's with friends - boys nite out"
HIM:"Oh, you are not afraid he is out with girls"
ME:"Sometimes it's best not to know too much. Ignorance is bliss"

HIM:"You are so pretty. If you are not married, I would love to date you. Actually, I don't mind you having a husband"
ME:"But I MIND!" (Another jerks!)

With that, he quickly excused himself . . . You can see, that guy could well be married too!

Is it really that fun in meaningless and frivolous affairs? Maybe so.

Forbidden fruit is poisonous, deadly but yet has this natural appeal that most men desire to have just a little bite. Lust. One of the seven sins.

Apple tastes sweeter when it's stolen, is it?

I Love You or You Love Me

Can love ever be that simple?

I remember when i was young, i often dream of falling passionately in love with an imaginary man who will ride a white horse wearing that shining armour. Hmm...Ok, forget about the horse and the armour, maybe a sporty motorbike and a simple plain white shirt will do. As long as he loves me to heaven, i will marry him for sure..........

Then as i grow older, i realised, it's not enough just to have some guy who loves you dearly. It's not enough even if he's willing to fly you to the moon or get you that huge red rock from Mars or get the biggest diamond in the world. Not when you don't even love him that little bit.

I began to also understand that having a relationship with some man who doesn't give two hoots about you won't work either. Especially when you happened to love that man madly to the sky, ever ready to start the bungee jumping trend down from New Asia Bar if he ever casually asked you to.(Just an example!)

So, tell me, which is better:

"To marry someone you love to death or to spend the rest of your life with someone you don’t love but who loves you very much?"

For me, i want to marry someone whom i love and one who loves me back. Because only then can i be truly happy.

Tell me, am i too idealistic?

Lappy Down AGAIN!!!

Sorry everyone! My lappy is down again last week... But it is working well and in top good condition after some help from few person esp HIM.... He is really sweet and a darling to me...Spend the whole day download all the software i need and finding ways to improve it and make it as if it is brand new for me... Even went down to SIM LIN during his busy working schedule to upgrade my RAM(Hopefully din loss any deal) and sent it back to my office door step to me... Save all the hassle and frustration dealing with this stupid lappy for me... FYI...Im an IT nerd:( ...............

Gathering for CNY Dinner

Met with some great friends to gossip share concern we have about others and over yu sheng and a wonderfully insanely filling zi char dinner.After which we adjourn to 2-mth old Firestation at Bukit Timah, an old fire station turned Art/Media mini-hub with 2 chill out joints.

Yes, like Dempsey. And it is call Jaywalk! The atmosphere is average and so-so, is all my great friends make the difference of this gathering..... Cheers:)

Oh oh oh… And they have Hoegaarden and Stella on the tap! Thank MazdaGal!

Happy lunar new year AGAIN!!!

Busy, Fun then Sick....

I have had another full fun weekend in the chalet. I really love all spare time I get....and my schedule is full for sure.. I had a lot of fun though. When I got home on Sunday after my chalet I fell asleep immediately. I woke up briefly and then fell asleep on the couch and finally decided to go back to bed. Yup it was a day of sleep. It was a lot of fun in the chalet. We were happy to see everyone had a good time catching up as well as bonding time.

For the first time, i really feels someone is standing there encouraging you and supporting you and loving you as you go along with the rest of the crowd. He makes it easier for me to face the crowd. It feels so good when you know he is planning every step of the way for you and you trust him along the way. And he said, silly gal I just want let you feel comfortable with them. How great is that!

I am feeling the effects in this hectic month. I think I might have phnumonia or something because I keep fighting something and its not getting any better. Time for the doctor. I have swollen glands and a sore throat that keeps calming down and then flairing up again:( Doc advised me to cut down on my activities and have sufficient rest everyday. Most important, stay away from hot, spicy and deep fried stuff.

Another busy time, it never ends

It has been another busy weekend. Recently, I have had a few partys to attend and gathering events and work and shopping. I felt a bit guilty not being home and doing chores and stuff but life is short and it was an opportunity that I am glad I did not miss out on.. My mum is always so wonderful, she handles all the chores pretty well and let me enjoy myself outside. I feel like the luckiest girl in the world.

Life is wonderful, it really is esp with mum around:)

My Xmas gift from him

Everyone was asking me what did I got for Xmas from him. He got me something that makes me so happy and is a bouquet of "Words of love"....He sees me as someone with lots of love and joy and happiness to give and he is right about that. I am full of such love and happiness and it is because "SOMEONE" is so easy for him to love....