How time flies

OMG, time really flies. Its already July, half year has gone by. As I sit here, I reflect at how the first half of the year went for me.

Well, overall, the first half of 2009 had been rather promising. It was a mixture of feelings-sometimes happy sometimes not, which I believe to be part and parcel of life.

Sure, things hasnt been at all smooth sailing all the way. This year, I have manage to finally get a few things done.

I suppose the greatest achievement thus far is my weight loss, which has changed my life in a way or another. I just hope that I have the motivation to carry on when I had reached my ideal weight.

The thing is, suddenly there seemed to be so many things happening concurrently last week so much that I have to adjust my feeling accordingly. Perhaps the thought of losing a close kin got me thinking that maybe I should start a new life. Since what happened with god son I had not been crying so badly for a long time and suddenly last week and even as I write, I felt like crying

I really need a break. I need to go some place where I can find more serenity and peace without disturbance of daily routines or even emails, meetings, phone calls etc.....I just wanted to get away and relax for a while. 2-3 days wont do me any good. I need to take a really long break (like a month) something which I hadnt done in a long long time.

I believe what's important now is to get my life re-aligned back to how it was.

Nuisance call!!!

It was a phone call @ around 12 midnight.

Following is the conversation we had:

???: Hey Bitch, what do u think u are doing?
Me: huh!!! Who are you? Did you dial the correct number???
???: You've not right to ask! Look at it this way, if u want, u could have got a better married man...but why someone who's struggling and has a happy family? I never felt so much pain in my whole life. He lied to me very often and beat me very often. When I asked him why, he said I had no grounds to complain about his dishonesty.
Me: Excuse me miss, i do not have any patience with you anymore unless you tell me who are you and what are you talking abt?
???: He only gives EMPTY PROMISES, MORE LIES to you.
Me: I'm going to report police for this nuisance call.
???: Okay then, if that's what you want. I wish you the best but remember, retribution will always be around you! Because he would SMS me to find out if I'd eaten or needed a ride home from work recently.
Me: Crazy woman!!!*Hang up the call!!!*
???:Continue screaming at her high pitch tone voice......................................................


It was a nightmare esp with her irritated voice. What a nuisance call!
I guess she should sought help from a counsellor.

Personality test

I found a a personality test in facebook.It says I am a Harmony Seeking Idealist - which is rather true to certain extent.

Yes, I confine my deepest and darkest thoughts with a selected few whom I trust and yes, permanent relationships are an important component in my life. I am no longer young and vain or naive enough to move halfway across the world with a man not knowing where/what my future really holds. I have to think very hard, after all, the man have to be my pillar of strength in life and not vice verse and whom I know I can depend on.

Holiday mood

For some reason or another my heart isnt in the office nor the work that I have to complete before I go on leave. Yes...I will be on leave tomorrow for 4 days. While I am very pleased I had to survive another month end with Linda's absence. I am in the holiday mood and looking forward to this well deserved break and to spending quality time with my loved ones:)

Sometimes I just simply wish to throw in the towels at work. I know the market is really bad, we have to work extra hard but I am tired...

At this moment, I would like to be a full-time homemaker, I know with what every man is making right now seem not possible and besides its not what every man would have wanted. While they wanted in a woman are those who can cook and take care of the house at the time it would be "nice" if the other partner can bring in the extra money so both of them dont have to struggle and can have a luxury life.

Anyway, I dont know how long will I be able to handle this but for the moment I am just enjoying the break....