小女人

One of my "friend" sms me relatively recently to ask me out…

HIM:Hey, want to head out for drinks?
ME:Nope. Quite busy these day
HIM:Busy dating?
ME:Busy with a lot of programs.
HIM:I saw you with another guy the other day. Is he the ONE???

I didn’t bother to reply. Seriously, what was his point???
To see if I would go out with him despite having a significant party?
It’s not as if he haven’t got turned down enough by ME before.

For some unknown reasons, I felt abit of happiness and glee.(小女人 's feeling)
Like you know… I kinda ‘belong’ to someone in other people eyes. So satisfying, it’s like a kind of secure feeling ba. HAHA!

Song Recommendation for Oct 2008:The Longest Movie 最長的電影 By 周杰倫

我們的開始　是很長的電影
放映了三年　我票都還留著

冰上的芭蕾　腦海中還在旋轉
望著妳　慢慢忘記妳

＃朦朧的時間　我們溜了多遠
　冰刀劃的圈　圈起了誰改變
　如果再重來　會不會稍嫌狼狽
　愛是不是不開口才珍貴

＊再給我兩分鐘　讓我把記憶結成冰
　別融化了眼淚　妳妝都花了 要我怎麼記得
　祈禱你將我忘了吧 祈禱你將我忘了吧
　妳說妳會哭　不是因為在乎

Repeat ＃,＊,＊

Is this what you really want????

Is this what you really want?

How many times have you asked yourself this question till now?

Being taken for granted and being expected to know everything and anything..

Being taken for granted that you will and should know what to do when something happens..

Being taken for granted that you should not bother other people unless it is really required..

Being taken for granted that everything is part of the whole package..

Even thou you were never told about alot of issues during the initial stage..

Even thou you were never told about alot of things..

Even thou you are shocked..

Even thou you have never been trained in those aspects..

Even thou you know nuts about those stuffs..

Is this...

What you really want???

Are you...Really happy???

Part time:Aunt Agony

xxx called me up today.... Im surprised to receive her after some many years.... She was crying over the side of the phone. Im so worried abt her.... Our conversation are as follows:

xxx: Hello Sis, *weeping* *weeping*
Me: Hello, what's happen to you? Dont cry first.. Calm down and we can have a good talk...
xxx: I'm so confused.....
Me: hmmm... confused abt what?
xxx:.......
Me: R/s?
xxx: Ya lor, he will never marry me because i am not the type of wife he is looking for.
Me: huh? Y did he say that?
xxx: because i can't do simple housework properly, can't cook, we always quarrel over simple and minor stuff, difference in character etc..
Me:love can surpass "can't do simple housework properly, can't cook, we always quarrel over simple and minor stuff, difference in character etc". well, you can always learn too. nothing is impossible if both of you want to work this relationship out.
xxx: i was very sad upon hearing that. i don't know what i should do? what will you do if you were me?
Me: I'll ask myself what do I want in this relationship? do I ultimately want to marry him or do I just want a soul mate?
xxx: other problem is communication. i feel that i can't get communicate well with him. whenever we got an argument, he will definitely insist that i am wrong and he's right. and most of the time, i have to give in to him. i don't know why, but in the end i will still give in to him. maybe he don't love me as much as i love him. (Sound so familiar to me......)
Me: Don't you find such an emotionally driven and draining relationship tiring?
xxx: Of cos la... But what to do...
Me: well, if getting married eventually is a commitment you are seeking in a bf, I guess you know what should be your next course of action. Don't wait anymore for a relationship that doesn't bear fruit. Don't waste your youth. You deserve to have somebody who loves u as much as u love him. (My dearie shared this with me! Thank:))
xxx: Thank Sis, i know what to do le... I feel better le...
Me: Np:) ...........................................

Only time will tell…

Quote by someone:

"if a relationship is based on infatuation, love or just plain lust."
"if a relationship is stemmed from love, happiness or desperation."

I had went through negligible relationships that are based on lust, and some infatuation.
I had went ahead to indulge in a relationship because I love… or because he makes me happy. I’ve had a lot of relationships and believed only time will tell...................

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You know you’ve got issues when almost every guy you’ve dated,
at one point or the other all end up saying, "I can’t mind read."
And if u’re lucky (or not so lucky in this instance) enough that the guy’s a sensitive one,
he would end up saying too that, "You keep it inside and don’t talk about it anymore."

"Someone"

It’s easy to have happy moments with someone, but it is finding someone who would work out the not so happy moments that is the most crucial thing in a relationship.

Have I found that someone in my life??? ...........................................