Deep Though

I have a supportive caring family,
a handful of people who I know are always there,
a nice enjoyable job,
a simple laid back life.
But why do I still feel so lost sometimes…
Why do I constantly feel that I’m not enough for myself?
Did I missed out something in my life?

Freedom

I am not submissive to my other half and my parents because I totally don’t like being controlled.It’s TWO very different story, deciding to submit or being told to do it. Recently my "unknown" had been calling me on a daily basis, smsing me on a hourly basis and bugging me at […] :(

嗨…

身为一个大/小女人(?)，我坚持认为事业是应该让男人来打拼的。
一个大男人在外打拼一番事业，为的就是要有更美好舒适的未来。
因为如此，我不会想要耽误一个男人的事业发展。
我本身始终能接受默默地在背后支持着一个自己爱的人。
因为陪伴着自己爱的男人共度一生就象是我自己的使命。

我曾经以为在一个男人背后默默的等待是一件相当容易的事。
但直到我轻身体会到一个人被透明地抛在后头时，我才发现其实这一点都不容易。
无言的呵护，无期限的等待，无承诺的未来…
有多少人能无条件的做到这些呢？
我曾经因为如此局面而发现原来爱情并不是伟大的。
爱情是自私的。
因为我们始终都想得到回报 － 对方的爱。
所为 once bitten, twice shy… 我已学会了不牺牲自己。
一切看得开一点，一切过得少忧虑一点，一切也走得潇洒一点.

说真的，我已好久未轰轰烈烈地热恋一番了.
多少也或许已忘了要怎么维护一段感情.
对自己太没信心，所以不敢想于太多… 要求太多… 只想始终能得到快乐。
我想我该也算是个为快乐而活的大/小女人吧…

P/S: 其实写到这里，我突然有一股冲动想把这网上日记给关了。总觉得自己因为这儿，而把 ‘自己’ 呈现在一个不怎么好的灯光下。嗨…

Lappy Down!!!

My lappy was down and sent for 2 weeks repairs and upgrading! I'm so handicap w/o my lappy.

I finally sat myself down with my newly rebooted & upgraded lappy and realise my biggest, most important, most personal folder in my laptop is missing!

I spend 15mins frantically searching and I’m now convinced it’s really gone…

I lost:
All my past work project portfolios and resumes.
All my cherished messages and conversation logs I had kept and encrypted.
All my video files. (except for the unimportant ones I kept in a separate folder)
All my personal pictures I had stored separately from the rest.
If I can use only 1 word now to describe my current feelings,the word would be ‘Devastated‘
I swear henceforth never to upgrade or do any changes to my lappy.
It’s not anybody’s fault but my own. Now everything new… I not familiar with some of the softwares.I can’t find CDs of my old programs I use, and lost all my important files.

I hate changes.
I farking hate changes.
It sucks feeling the tears welling up in my eyes.
$#&$^#@% the people who say 旧的不去，新的不来。

Time & Love

I personally like this story alot...so though of sharing with u guys...enjoy reading...

Once upon a time, there was an island where all feelings lived:Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others including Love.

One day it was announced to the feelings that the island wouldsink, so all repaired their boats and left. Love was the onlyone who stayed. Love wanted to persevere until the last possible moment.

When the island was almost sinking, Love decided to ask forhelp. Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said,"Richness, can you take me with you?" Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you.

"Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel, "Vanity, please help me!" "I can't help you Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked for help, "Sadness, let me Go with you." "Oh...Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!

"Happiness passed by Love too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her!

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come Love, I will take you." Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that he even forgot to ask him his name.

When they arrived at dry land, the man went his own way. Love realizing how much he owed the man asked Knowledge, "Who helped me?"

"It was Time," Knowledge answered.

"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?

"Knowledge smiled with deep Wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

- Author Unknown

Hong Kong Disneyland

My HK Disneyland pics are ready for viewing. Pretty tiring but it was fun. Let the pictures tell the story ba! :)

Too little time and too many things to do!

Haven't blogged for 1 month! That's because life's been busier for me as compared to a few months ago. As we move on, we get busier and busier, and we see lesser and lesser blogs by ourselves. I feel guilty for leaving this website pretty abandoned for quite some time liao. But there's just too little time and too many things to do. Speaking of that, im busy with housekeeping now. So I gotta get back to clear my stuff. Take care! =)