Sometimes

Sometimes I wonder if i'm meant to be alone

Sometimes I wonder if there really is anyone out there for me

Sometimes I wonder if there really is THE ONE.

I used to be a real sucker for the lovey doveys. But as the years went by, the conception of THE ONE just started fading away into the wilderness.

I suppose sooner or later we'll come to a stage where both friends and relatives start with the questionings of "when's ur turn to get married?"

I'm really sorry but my personal take on this is that "I dont think I will. Why? Because I dont think there's someone out there who loves me that much that he will be willing to commit and devote his life to being with me". Its a sad notion and though everyone chooses to not believe my same belief but rather put their faith in, "dont be ridiculous, you'll definately get hitched", I still dont think so. This belief, I would think, is a contributing factor to me avoiding weddings like the plague.

Even just the last month, whilst I was watching that new TV show, "A Wedding Affair" hosted by hosts Utt and Jaymee Ong, there was this feeling of jealousy dwelling within. Worst still was the feelings that came when I caught "Top 10 Celebrity Weddings" or something like that. They all looked so much in love. Awww. I couldnt bear to watch anymore and switched channels.

Sad right? Yeap. I think so too. But one still has to have contingency planning in the event the worst does form true, hence, its time to SAVE, SAVE, SAVE!