Not in the mood

Chinese New Year is barely two weeks away but strangely this year, I am not in the mood for celebration. I havent started my shopping partly because I am so busy with work.

So I guess I will be spending time at home but it'll be good because I get to spend time with my family and also it'll probably be a good time to catch up on movies etc.

I dont know how will the folks react that I wont be going for any visiting every Chinese New Year. The fact is, I dont see it as necessary. For me it is just another day/excuse to get together eat and gossip. I dont want to be part of their gossip topic!

Of singlehood and motherhood

I got a shocking call earlier today from a gal friend, E, announcing that she is pregnant. Why would that be so shocking ? Because she is as single and how can she possibly get herself pregnant?

When E broke the news was that how calm and happy she sounded. As far as I knew E wasnt even dating but a one night stay turned into something different and unexpected.

When I asked her what did the guy said about it and whether he will take responsibility, she just his reaction was nothing but cold. What a bastard I thought!

E is highly independent, confident and very down to earth but news of the pregnancy had changed her a bit. She is in shock like me and she is confused too.

Basically she told me, she had 3 options

1) to abort

2) to keep the baby and overcome the problems of being a single mum

3) force the guy to take responsibility, which will be the hardest thing to do

She ask me what is my option, I would rather take option 2.

Option 1 will be the last resort for me because I know people who had lived their live with guilt because they did abortion and I dont want E to go through the same thing.

While Option 3 seemed so far fetched. If I am in that shoe, I certainly wont want a guy to marry me because of responsibility.

Whatever decision E choose to make in the end, she has my full support.

If E chooses option 2, I would give her respect for taking that big step and overcoming all the problems. I had warned her that with single motherhood comes sacrifices.

Transition

Over the last few months, there had been some organizational restructuring and many were affected by it including mine.

I count it a blessing that my transition isnt as difficult compared to the rest of my friends because I will basically be doing the same old roles except that I will perhaps have to understake more order management and handle Europe region. The only difference is change of reporting structure. As of today, I am to report direct to the another boss which I am truly looking forward to and for which I am glad.

I've being very busy last few months since this week is coming to another quarter end and many people going through that transition period. I have always being very adaptable to change no matter what kind of environment I am in. Typically, it'll take me a week to get use to my new sitting place, which is an advantage.

Quick updates

I know I havent been updating my blog for the last few months or so because work had kept me busy. Its quater end which also means time to do up for work again. I have changed my reporting structure. I report to someone who know nice and understanding and as a result I do feel less pressure for him.

Did alot today, manage to slot in the much needed spring cleaning this morning.

Fighting a battle

I told dar that for the sake of my family I will fight this battle but I dont know how long can I do it. I am scared of losing everything that I have worked so hard for. I am very young and have a future ahead of me.

While I thought things have looked bad, I was given a big surprise on friday. I go for my yearly scanning, MRI and blood tests, but the result wasnt what my doctor or myself expected. Apparently the scanning results showed my tumors size has shrink to the acceptable range and I find it hard to accept this is good news. But just to be sure, blood test is required.

I had a hard time drawing blood and this process is really killing me. I've been poke three times with needles! Ouch! Maybe because I am scared, alone and lost -- very very lost, I had been crying during the whole drawing blood session! I hate this!

Anyways, we will see how it goes for the blood test results.

Thanks to all my friends - You all had been my pillar of strength and a wonderful one to start with.

Thanks to my beloved driver who send me home when I need him without failed! He gives me a life and I follow his surname :)

Thanks to my loving mum, she cooks tonic soup to replenish the blood loss and got me chicken esscence to show her tender loving care....

I had a life and a potential wonderful future! :) :) Jiayou

Carlsberg Gold

I came across this Carlsberg Gold beer during our weekend grocery shopping at Shop and Save, dar insists that i should give it a try and I will love it. As I wanted something smooth and this proves to the right and its tasty too. Tho its a bit costly. Priced is like 4-5 bucks higher than the normal one depending on where u get it. Anyway, I'm not the one paying afterall... LOL :)

Busy with work

Work had kept me so busy that I hardly have time to update this blog. There is so much to do at work so much that I am so looking forward to the long Raya break. I know we just had a long weekend but I still need to sleep in a lot more.

There are work pending and datelines to meet so I shall keep this short.
Just an update.