Crystalbell World

Not in the mood

2010-01-31T21:26:00.003+08:00

Chinese New Year is barely two weeks away but strangely this year, I am not in the mood for celebration. I havent started my shopping partly because I am so busy with work.

So I guess I will be spending time at home but it'll be good because I get to spend time with my family and also it'll probably be a good time to catch up on movies etc.

I dont know how will the folks react that I wont be going for any visiting every Chinese New Year. The fact is, I dont see it as necessary. For me it is just another day/excuse to get together eat and gossip. I dont want to be part of their gossip topic!

Of singlehood and motherhood

2010-01-26T22:04:00.000+08:00

I got a shocking call earlier today from a gal friend, E, announcing that she is pregnant. Why would that be so shocking ? Because she is as single and how can she possibly get herself pregnant?

When E broke the news was that how calm and happy she sounded. As far as I knew E wasnt even dating but a one night stay turned into something different and unexpected.

When I asked her what did the guy said about it and whether he will take responsibility, she just his reaction was nothing but cold. What a bastard I thought!

E is highly independent, confident and very down to earth but news of the pregnancy had changed her a bit. She is in shock like me and she is confused too.

Basically she told me, she had 3 options

1) to abort

2) to keep the baby and overcome the problems of being a single mum

3) force the guy to take responsibility, which will be the hardest thing to do

She ask me what is my option, I would rather take option 2.

Option 1 will be the last resort for me because I know people who had lived their live with guilt because they did abortion and I dont want E to go through the same thing.

While Option 3 seemed so far fetched. If I am in that shoe, I certainly wont want a guy to marry me because of responsibility.

Whatever decision E choose to make in the end, she has my full support.

If E chooses option 2, I would give her respect for taking that big step and overcoming all the problems. I had warned her that with single motherhood comes sacrifices.

Transition

2010-01-25T21:33:00.000+08:00

Over the last few months, there had been some organizational restructuring and many were affected by it including mine.

I count it a blessing that my transition isnt as difficult compared to the rest of my friends because I will basically be doing the same old roles except that I will perhaps have to understake more order management and handle Europe region. The only difference is change of reporting structure. As of today, I am to report direct to the another boss which I am truly looking forward to and for which I am glad.

I've being very busy last few months since this week is coming to another quarter end and many people going through that transition period. I have always being very adaptable to change no matter what kind of environment I am in. Typically, it'll take me a week to get use to my new sitting place, which is an advantage.

Quick updates

2010-01-23T08:21:00.000+08:00

I know I havent been updating my blog for the last few months or so because work had kept me busy. Its quater end which also means time to do up for work again. I have changed my reporting structure. I report to someone who know nice and understanding and as a result I do feel less pressure for him.

Did alot today, manage to slot in the much needed spring cleaning this morning.

Fighting a battle

2009-09-25T09:50:00.000+08:00

I told dar that for the sake of my family I will fight this battle but I dont know how long can I do it. I am scared of losing everything that I have worked so hard for. I am very young and have a future ahead of me.

While I thought things have looked bad, I was given a big surprise on friday. I go for my yearly scanning, MRI and blood tests, but the result wasnt what my doctor or myself expected. Apparently the scanning results showed my tumors size has shrink to the acceptable range and I find it hard to accept this is good news. But just to be sure, blood test is required.

I had a hard time drawing blood and this process is really killing me. I've been poke three times with needles! Ouch! Maybe because I am scared, alone and lost -- very very lost, I had been crying during the whole drawing blood session! I hate this!

Anyways, we will see how it goes for the blood test results.

Thanks to all my friends - You all had been my pillar of strength and a wonderful one to start with.

Thanks to my beloved driver who send me home when I need him without failed! He gives me a life and I follow his surname :)

Thanks to my loving mum, she cooks tonic soup to replenish the blood loss and got me chicken esscence to show her tender loving care....

I had a life and a potential wonderful future! :) :) Jiayou

Carlsberg Gold

2009-09-21T01:00:00.000+08:00

I came across this Carlsberg Gold beer during our weekend grocery shopping at Shop and Save, dar insists that i should give it a try and I will love it. As I wanted something smooth and this proves to the right and its tasty too. Tho its a bit costly. Priced is like 4-5 bucks higher than the normal one depending on where u get it. Anyway, I'm not the one paying afterall... LOL :)

Busy with work

2009-09-20T00:53:00.000+08:00

Work had kept me so busy that I hardly have time to update this blog. There is so much to do at work so much that I am so looking forward to the long Raya break. I know we just had a long weekend but I still need to sleep in a lot more.

There are work pending and datelines to meet so I shall keep this short.
Just an update.

What a weekend

2009-08-29T20:02:00.000+08:00

I had a splendid weekend. Ah En's mummy invited me over for BBQ last night which lasted till almost 12am. Although tedious it was fun - I am kind of enjoying the chores of BBQ-ing the food and experimenting with various ingredient one being BBQ-ing with another which turned out quite fun and tasty. Most important, this is a good event for bonding esp seeing everyone making an effort to make this event successful and fun. $50 is well-spent indeed.

Today I didnt even really go out. Stayed indoors most of today sleeping in. I like weekend like these where I can just laze around and not having to turn on my phone and sleep in as and when I fancy. Everyone happens to share the same interest. Tho, I dont get to go that many weekends because most other weekends there are chores to be done somehow - one being laundry.

For the moment, I only have to think of what to have for dinner. Should I heat up the leftover wings or just have bread? I am feeling kind of lazy and tired tonight. Maybe I should just go for bread - its healthier anyways.

Catching up

2009-08-20T23:12:00.000+08:00

There is so much to update. I have been slacking on my entries these days because other things takes priority in my life.

Since my last update alot had happened some good some bad to me and here I am once again sharing my thoughts and bits and pieces of my life.

Work - had been stressful and am considering moving but nothing is in place the moment so am just hanging in there for now.

Relationship -For the moment, I can just pray and hope for the best.

Health- Whatever it takes, ,my health is more important. Work can always come by but not my health. I've been worried sick about my coming yearly "major" check up next month.

We will see. for now,I need to shut my eyes and rest.

"Attacked" by this massive migraine

2009-08-18T20:42:00.000+08:00

For some reason or another, I was out for food this morning and a bit of grocery shopping when I was "attacked" by this massive migraine like headache so I had to come back to rest. The moment I came home, my remedy was to jump into a soothing hot shower (which usually works) but soon after I started this crazy about of vomitting so much that I could eat or drink because everything that goes in will come out within an hour or so.

I didnt want to get out of the house as it was really hot outside so instead I fell into deep sleep until a call from Nigel woke me up.

Am still not feeling too good, despite the sleep and yet another hot shower, but I think I can take food already because I had just downed a glass of milk and so far its so good *cross fingers*. I think I should get back to sleep as I can still feel the grogginess.

How time flies

2009-07-26T23:15:00.000+08:00

OMG, time really flies. Its already July, half year has gone by. As I sit here, I reflect at how the first half of the year went for me.

Well, overall, the first half of 2009 had been rather promising. It was a mixture of feelings-sometimes happy sometimes not, which I believe to be part and parcel of life.

Sure, things hasnt been at all smooth sailing all the way. This year, I have manage to finally get a few things done.

I suppose the greatest achievement thus far is my weight loss, which has changed my life in a way or another. I just hope that I have the motivation to carry on when I had reached my ideal weight.

The thing is, suddenly there seemed to be so many things happening concurrently last week so much that I have to adjust my feeling accordingly. Perhaps the thought of losing a close kin got me thinking that maybe I should start a new life. Since what happened with god son I had not been crying so badly for a long time and suddenly last week and even as I write, I felt like crying

I really need a break. I need to go some place where I can find more serenity and peace without disturbance of daily routines or even emails, meetings, phone calls etc.....I just wanted to get away and relax for a while. 2-3 days wont do me any good. I need to take a really long break (like a month) something which I hadnt done in a long long time.

I believe what's important now is to get my life re-aligned back to how it was.

Nuisance call!!!

2009-07-06T19:45:00.002+08:00

It was a phone call @ around 12 midnight.

Following is the conversation we had:

???: Hey Bitch, what do u think u are doing?
Me: huh!!! Who are you? Did you dial the correct number???
???: You've not right to ask! Look at it this way, if u want, u could have got a better married man...but why someone who's struggling and has a happy family? I never felt so much pain in my whole life. He lied to me very often and beat me very often. When I asked him why, he said I had no grounds to complain about his dishonesty.
Me: Excuse me miss, i do not have any patience with you anymore unless you tell me who are you and what are you talking abt?
???: He only gives EMPTY PROMISES, MORE LIES to you.
Me: I'm going to report police for this nuisance call.
???: Okay then, if that's what you want. I wish you the best but remember, retribution will always be around you! Because he would SMS me to find out if I'd eaten or needed a ride home from work recently.
Me: Crazy woman!!!*Hang up the call!!!*
???:Continue screaming at her high pitch tone voice......................................................

It was a nightmare esp with her irritated voice. What a nuisance call!
I guess she should sought help from a counsellor.

Personality test

2009-07-02T19:46:00.002+08:00

I found a a personality test in facebook.It says I am a Harmony Seeking Idealist - which is rather true to certain extent.

Yes, I confine my deepest and darkest thoughts with a selected few whom I trust and yes, permanent relationships are an important component in my life. I am no longer young and vain or naive enough to move halfway across the world with a man not knowing where/what my future really holds. I have to think very hard, after all, the man have to be my pillar of strength in life and not vice verse and whom I know I can depend on.

Holiday mood

2009-07-02T19:08:00.003+08:00

For some reason or another my heart isnt in the office nor the work that I have to complete before I go on leave. Yes...I will be on leave tomorrow for 4 days. While I am very pleased I had to survive another month end with Linda's absence. I am in the holiday mood and looking forward to this well deserved break and to spending quality time with my loved ones:)

Sometimes I just simply wish to throw in the towels at work. I know the market is really bad, we have to work extra hard but I am tired...

At this moment, I would like to be a full-time homemaker, I know with what every man is making right now seem not possible and besides its not what every man would have wanted. While they wanted in a woman are those who can cook and take care of the house at the time it would be "nice" if the other partner can bring in the extra money so both of them dont have to struggle and can have a luxury life.

Anyway, I dont know how long will I be able to handle this but for the moment I am just enjoying the break....

Should the Guy Always Pay the Bill for Dates?

2009-06-19T21:02:00.001+08:00

I had a conversation with J over the phone few days ago. She confides one of the r/s issue some of us might faces.
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J: Girl, I couldnt tahan him anymore, he want equality extends to everything. He expects me to pay my share on a date.
Me: huh.....erm....You could always split the bill, but I think it’s more fun to give him a treat once a while. No harm trying.
J: Wei....It’s the guy’s job to be the provider, dont you think so?
Me: Ya, but if you are counting every cents to keep it all even, its never going to work out in the end anyway.
J: OH HELL NO. The friggin guy should always pay what!!
Me: Aiyo, I think it’s sweet if the guy wants to pay, but I would never expect it. It’s nice when a man is a genleman and is just NICE loh...
J: Girl, do you have this issues or not?
Me: Most of the time the guy won’t let me pay for dinner de loh.....
J: Wah liew, you're really a lucky girl man!!! What’s wrong with my guy?
Me: I think that the answer is simple. You give what you can la... I guess they can probably tell that I spent a lot in my SK II products ,so if they afford to foot the bills, why not loh...
J: You wont understand de, I don’t want “equality”...When I was dating, my policy was that I wouldn’t date someone again if they expected me to pay.
Me: Argh! Why do you want to make everyone stress about this? I’m not saying a guy or girl can’t treat, but never ever expect it. You can always asked him to pays when going out to eat. HOWEVER, not on a regular basic, maybe twice a week. You can pay for all of the groceries, food stuff, snacks or get him something that he needs (like herbal tea during bad weather or socks if you see a hole)or shower him with presents or gifts. It will works well for both of you, and I think it’s fair.
J: aha.. sound gd hor.... Woman love to shop for guys too... You finally sort out my though...
Me: Aiyo, give and take is more impt! If he pay for the date then it’s great for you but do appreciate the gesture k...
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New phone

2009-06-17T20:48:00.003+08:00

I finally got a new phone, the Samsung Omnia i900, which is really cool. I am already having lots of fun with it at the same time learning to use its features.

I havent gotten around to take a photo of it though some of the photos taken with the phone had been uploaded on my album.

Sheer indecisiveness

2009-06-05T23:51:00.005+08:00

I look forward to going out this weekend but today he told me that he's not sure if he wanted to go without any reason why and that he expects me to know. By him saying that, I already more or less know that we wont be making planning to anywhere at all.

At this point, because everything with him is on pending status, I cant even plan for my own schedule. Sometimes I just understand why he cant make up his mind over something as simple as this, like how enthusiastic he was about going out with me.

Because he is undecisive, I figured that at the end I'd probably end up staying home over the weekend because everything else would either be too expensive or fully booked that there isnt anywhere else really to go.

Guess I need to look into delta(which means back up plan)! I need to de-stress!!!

We shall see how it goes.

Back at work

2009-06-05T23:23:00.003+08:00

I came back to work yesterday although not fully recovered but I know I cant afford to rest anymore at home as my bosses probably wont like it. Besides there's alot of things I need to follow up. I came back to work finding 167 emails in my mailbox, which is alot but manage to get them all answered.

However, my brain isnt working as well as I would like to as I am still tired. For some reason or another, my entire body is aching is mad and I wished someone was here to give me that much needed massage.....................

Shoes

2009-06-03T00:18:00.004+08:00

Like most women, I have this thing for shoes. I do have alot of shoes some of which only worn once some never. I got this habit from my mum. Mum used to owns 9 cabinets full of shoes back home. Being her only daughter, I guess it is only fair that I got this habit from her.

Why does a woman have to have so many pairs of shoes?

Because we wanted to match with the multi-colored clothes which we own. Sometimes I even ask myself why do I keep buying shoes? I just simply go crazy when I see shoes that fits me. I think was only a natural progressive after grown up. I accumulated more shoes when I started working since there's nothing much to do except shopping then. It doesnt help as well that I always went out with someone who loves shopping and shoes equally.

I had 3 big boxes (similiar to those DHL 25kg jumbo box) filled with shoes (that's after throwing/giving away some). Most of these shoes, are currently stacked in another cabinet in my room for reasons that these are rather out of trend shoes to wear now or not really suit me now.

Due recent recession and pay cut, seeing the shoes at the sales made me go crazy. In the end I have to make a choice. I am certainly going back for somemore after this period is over....hehe...its hard to resist shoe shopping...haha...

Thoughts on Dad

2009-05-22T00:32:00.002+08:00

I know Father's day is still like another few weeks away. Here goes my post on my dad.
Being his only daughter, it was obvious to people who knew the family that I was his "little princess", always is and always will be, I know that for a fact.

Because my dad spent most part of his young life providing for the father, I didnt get that close to him until I finished secondary school. That's when I began to see things through his perspective.

As I grew older, I find myself becoming closer to both my parents particularly my dad. I find myself missing him more than ever these days, so unlike previously I speak to my dad (or rather my parents) at least 5 times a week if not daily.

When I was much younger, example: in my sec school days, I could not understand why dad restricted me from doing some things but now when I think back, I find myself being very thankful for his "protectiveness", otherwise, I would not be who or where I am today.

Being an only daughter, I admit that my dad was a bit protective of me. I didnt go to a formal party until I was about 21 or so and my curfew was 10pm and my mummy called my friend's house every 30 minutes to check on me. I was embarassed by that fact then but then I realised now that they are doing it all for my own good and because they love me.

Over the last few years, I was taken aback by how much more liberal my dad had been. When my mum started questioning me about relationship and my intentions to eventually settle down, dad chided mum and told her to let me decide myself.

Sometimes I think could it because of age that he no longer want to bother about my life or it is because he trust me?? Curious on a recent phone conversation, I asked him this question to which he replied, "It is not age, its because I trust you know what's right and wrong and what matters to me is that as always you make me feel so proud of you." It was nice to hear such encouraging words from someone who barely spoke.

My dad always say that "no where is better than home", if "no man can provide you with a safe and warmth home, i can".... My dad will always be the first person I run back to when I am faced with problems. All my life, he had been the person who is the first to celebrate my successes and heal my failures.

The bond which I started with my dad cannot be ever replaced even by anything else. Once, my bf asked if i were given a choice between him or my dad. My replied to him is, i would have choosen my dad anytime because I know that he will never let me walk through life's alone.

Perhaps it is time for each and everyone of us to reflect on our dad and to appreciate the many things that he had done for us.

To my dad and all Father's out there, Happy Father's Day (in advance) and have fun!

Lazy Monday

2009-05-18T21:56:00.007+08:00

For some reason or another, I am feeling very lazy today. I am not in the mood for anything at all not even really to do work. All I wanted to do is sleep. I went to bed at about 10 last night but throughout the night, my phone had been beeping with smses and calls, which woke me up and...my phone has this very annoying white blinking light.

Maybe it is time for another retreat.....Someone had promised that we'll go somewhere one of the weekends in June during the school holidays. Am keeping my fingers crossed for the moment.

Balloon Flower

2009-05-18T20:23:00.006+08:00

Ah...it felt so nice! Finally, the long awaited day is here. Last fri was my last working day of the week and I am happy about it.

I had a great time on last Fri where I had manage to catch up with some friends over dinner. And oh yes, a very good friend of mine Jx had just gotten me a purple color balloon flower... I was really surprised! Such good friend he is er?

I had sooo much fun although I didn't really got any appetite during dinner but the company had been fun and entertaining. I am always blessed with many good friends

What if

2009-05-18T20:11:00.002+08:00

He had left his handphone in the car few months back and while scrolling thru the numerous smses I found a few from his ex. While I have no problem with them still keeping in touch,I secretly harbour on the fact that she wont come back especially not after I've worked so hard at making the relationship work.

In one of the sms, she asked him for help, with what exactly I dont know and he responded that he will help her. That itself is heartbreaking but then I could be a bit paranoid because he might be just helping as a friend but...I dont know.

He did mention she is just a mutual friend that wants to borrow car or things like that am not sure. Am still not feeling too good abt it after months....

Labour Day

2009-05-03T22:10:00.006+08:00

Great labour day for me... I went out to Jing Xuan's full month celebration at Jurong West with my poly friends. The house was so packed and overwhelming with friends, relatives and colleagues. Baby Jing Xuan was so tired because she didnt get any sleep in the afternoon.She slept throughout the evening and we gdidnt get any chance to play with her. Baby Jing Xuan is so lucky, Aunt Amy spent her half day leave shop around to get a present for you. Hope you will like it.

Jing Xuan is coming to 4kg... RBelow is her pic.

This is a small present for you and an ang pow for your daddy & mummy. Be a good girl!

Then we proceeded for drinks at Mind Cafe located at Purvis Street. I had not been there for a long long time, like 2 years so I was game for it. The crowd was nice just that the crowd was a bit too much for me and the catch up session was great and not too much on the high side.

Had so much fun I will be doing this kind of thing again when all of us can find time......:) Here's to a great weekend ahead!!!

Birthday surprise!!!

2009-04-20T21:34:00.004+08:00

I am blessed with many good friends, even friends who would painstaking to do a "special pic of me with cute guy" that surprise me in a different way..

Slowly more and more surprises starts to be revealed...and they bought me an Agnes B Pale Pink Nylon Sling and yes, i need it! They're really sweeeeeetttttttttttttt.....Although the surprise was simple it was really a nice gesture from so many good friends so I figured more or less that I must have a very special place in their heart for them to do such things. :) A BIG thanks girls!

This year I celebrate yet another milestone in my life journey and of course I celebrate the many things associated with me especially my thriving relationship and growing friendships. Most of all, I celebrate the notion of being myself and having the courage to live life the way it is.

Phone call

2009-04-17T23:54:00.002+08:00

As I was happily enjoying my quiet evening at home, XXX smsed me...." Hi Amy, can u pls call me back..URGENT!!" I contemplated for a while to call or not to call. He had never sent me an sms like that when we together years ago. The bold URGENT sounded like a call for help. I didnt call him back. An hour plus after the sms he missed call me expecting me to return the call as I always did and again, I contemplated if it was the right thing to do at all.

After much thought and pondering I succumb the other side of me, I called him back but he didnt answer and for a moment, Many things came to my mind then and all the sudden I felt that guilt of not responding to his call if he really need help. But then I knew I couldnt blame myself because he made me make the decision I did.

Finally after my 2nd attempt he answered the phone and told me that he fell asleep. So I asked him what is so urgent that he wanted me to call him back immediately. He said its because he suddenly missed me and felt like hearing my voice. He couldnt accept the fact that there are guys around me. Funny! He is obviously playing psychology game with me. Why is it that he still cannot let me go properly?? And why is it that he doesnt understand that things arent possible between us? Why is that he doesnt understand that?

I just held on to the phone quietly and finally told him I that its no use telling me all these now and that there is a limit to my patience and tolerance. Then he started to cry knowing that it will melt my heart in the past but I am truly proud of myself now because I dont even give a darn to his crocodile tears, he is just another jerk that scare of lonely. I TOLD him that we are OVER few years back, I simply just hung up the phone - I know its rather rude of me but I didnt have a choice then. Besides, he is getting annoying! Another selfish guy-.-"

I am not about to change my mobile number because of one person. It wont be fair to the many other hundred people who have my mobile number!!!

New toy

2009-04-13T21:52:00.004+08:00

I got a new face toner. Its an OTO FT-110 Face Toner and so far performance had been great. Its a gift from someone special. Its practical and I needed one anyways.

The face toner's really cool and I am having a lot of fun with it. I havent been taking enough care for my skin recently. This face toner help to redefine my skin texture and facial muscle toning. It is safe, easy to use and hope it it effective too...

The unit comes with 5 interchangeable heads(for smoothing face toner, energizing face toner, contour massage, exfoliation brush and cleansing sponge) for different massaging and toning actions.

No matter how good your skincare products, they must be used with regular facial exercise to maintain the base muscle of my skin. I'm looking to maintain my youthful looks... hehe...

Sunday night at Timbre

2009-04-13T21:08:00.004+08:00

This past Sunday I went to Timbre with some friends. It was as always an interesting experience because you never know who you will meet there.

But the heavy rain in the late evening had sort of dampen my mood and I suppose alot of people's as well. The truth was when I was at Orchard I contemplated whether to proceed to Timbre or not but since I promised my friends, I went anyways.

And it proofed to be a right decision as I had a lot of fun. At the same, I've got to know quite a bit of people. However, there was this other guy who came up to me and asked for my number and wanted me to go outside with him, which obviously I didnt and he had the guts to bluntly ask me if I wanted to be his gf.

Fortunately for me, I have many good friends to protect me. They push him and warn him to stay away from me. At that moment is not only the gentleman act but I felt the warmth and security.

Overall, I had lots of fun at Timbre though I knew I had to wake up the next morning for my check up at TMC but it was so fun I stayed on till closing time, and Jason gives me a ride home to my door step.

Thank You!!! Muacks!

2009-04-13T20:37:00.004+08:00

Thank you everyone for celebrating my 28th birthday with me and your warm birthday wishes. I felt the warmth and touched.

Thank you again.

Happy birthday to me!! 7th April!!

2009-04-13T20:27:00.004+08:00

Well...today is my birthday. Had a great party last night which lasted till almost 11plus but thank God, I am on leave today and tomorrow. Am going to spend some quality time with all my friends. Its really a rare thing that some of them make an effort to spend my birthday with me because they knew it was important to me.

Spending money

2009-04-03T23:08:00.003+08:00

What do you do when you are down/depressed or totally stressed out? When the daily routines & events in your life goes upside down? While most people I know would drink till they get drunk and sleep through that misery hoping they'll forget when they awaken the next day, while I also know of some people who cry it all out each time they cant take that pressure of keeping everything inside, also some who eat alot more than they should......

For me, I spend money to get rid of that feeling, many times buying things (that include food stuff) that I don't ever need. I think that's why my entire wardrobe is full of clothes that I hardly ever wear, shoe racks filled with shoes that I wear only once or twice, some never and bags that I hardly use.

So, most of the time when I am down, I will throng the shopping malls going on the mad shopping spree, which can be rather scary but yet, like blogging I found that therepeutic. It made me feel better.

That's also the reason why I hardly if ever, does Spring cleaning because I'll have so much stuff I dont even know what to dispose of or rather I'd not want to dispose of it. This habit of mine is not like its life and death situation but I do realise that I do need some sort of help to curb it before I burn a bigger hole in my bank accounts.

While I enjoy travelling, the only reason I hardly ever do anymore now is because I am afraid of spending excessively when I travel no matter where. I think I got this "habit" which is buying a lot of sandles, slippers, heels n etc but hardly ever touch and finds thrill in just buying them. But I got some stuff and that made me feel alot better.

*sigh* How to help myself???

Prelude to birthday

2009-04-03T22:28:00.003+08:00

4 more days and I will be turning 28. While others frown at that fact, I am looking forward to it. Like I told NK, when I am in my 20s its like I'm in between a girl and woman but at 28 I am a "real woman" meaning I get a better hang of myself and enjoying more of womanhood. So, I am all grown up now. That also means, more responsibilities and more pressures to settle down from family and friends...!

The next few days will be filled with celebrations. I've been getting sms from friends asking what I want for birthday this year... My answer to them is nothing because this is not a good year and recession/retrenchment is going on. I rather they save it up for rainy days. I really appreciate their thoughts.

Its been a long time since I had celebrated my birthday in that way especially after what happened years ago. I remembered the years ago, my birthdays were always celebrated in another country-Bangkok, Hong Kong, KL, Batam, Bali and NYC, and made sure that the planes land on the morning of my birthday.

All along birthdays is just another day, it is always friends who decides that they want to celebrate it with me and that itself is really sweet. Otherwise, I wont even bother celebrating it.

What do I wish for this birthday? Well...lets save this post for another time (maybe the actual day???). Am looking forward to all the fun of catching up with people.....

Flaring anger

2009-04-03T22:15:00.002+08:00

I am known to be someone who has always cant be calm in most of my dealings - even my workmates said that. Yes, this is true. My anger will flare when challenged. Sadly tho, I dont know how to write with that angry emotion so I'll just write as usual.

Why full of anger? Its a very long story that I would rather not mention too much. I am so angry now I could scold anyone who steps on my tail. All this while I had taken it with a piece of salt but it doesnt mean I dont bother.

I just dont bother arguing with idiots like her because it will be a waste of time. She thinks just because I dont ever defend myself she can keep doing. I am just being patience. One day she will get it from me or better still God.

Migraine Headache-It's kiiling me

2009-03-22T17:53:00.003+08:00

I'm having terrible headache on both Fri and Sat...I hate it as migraine is much more than a bad headache and throbbing headache usually felt on one side of my head. The pain may also shift from side to side.This time round accompanied by severe vomiting, and extreme sensitivity to smell, light and sound. It's really spolit my moods. I believe my migrance is trigger by stress as im having a hard week at work and bright lights/sun glare. Some of my friends who knows me well understand why i always mention "见光着死" in 2 diff terms 。光 can damage my face so i will try to avoid it and 光 can trigger my migraine too. Secondhand smoke may provoke my migraines further headache pain. This is one of the worst relapse i ever had... It had been 4 years back since the last relapse. It's killing me:(

Nothing else matters, every other concern in the world takes a back seat to getting rid of the pain. I have to turn out the lights, pull shades and close the curtains. Then lay down comfortably on the bed with two pillows by my side. Simply relaxing in a dark, quiet room is often enough to quickly alleviate my migraine headaches. YES! I need total darkness.. Stay away for those smells and noise that irritates me further...... FINALLY, fall asleep till the next morning........... This is a way for me to relieve from migraine headache pain.

Large chicken breast or fillet white fish or lean red meat are recommended for people who suffer from migraine headaches. So the next Sat morning, he brought me fish porridge and deliver it to my door step in the shortest time he could. Heartfelt and sincere, thanks for everything you have ever done.

I feel much better after two days resting at home... Phew! It's finally over.........

What makes a BEST partner

2009-03-15T15:45:00.002+08:00

A colleague sent me this, which I thought was quite meaningful and I cant help but ponder how many of this does my partner qualify.

1.Someone who knows what you need before you say it.
2.Someone who knows when to laugh and when to cry.
3.Someone who truly listens when you have something to say.
4.Someone that’s there for you during the good and bad times.
5.Someone who is caring.
6.Someone who is interested in reality and not as a fashion display.
7.Someone who is honest.
8.Someone you can trust them as a sibling, confide in like a friend but most of all, love as the great lover they are.
9.Someone who is open and responsive.
10.Someone who is never critical and ill-tempered in respect to your needs.
11.Someone who knows when things have to be compromised in the relationship.
12.Someone who understands listening is the key, but using what is heard is even more important.
13.Someone who’s there for you no matter what.
14.Someone who is trustful. Someone who is a friend.
15.Someone who gives a shoulder to cry on.
16.Someone with a great sense of humor.
17.Someone who has things in common with you.
18.Someone who takes time to listen and enjoy you for who you are and tries not to make you something else.
19.Someone with a constant open ear, open heart, and open mind to accept and love people for who they really are.
20.Someone who always be there to support your ideas without argument and love you for everything that you are.
21.Someone that can get a point across without yelling.
22.Someone that remembers all the cute stupid stuff you love.
23.Someone that has a personality with qualities you don’t have yourself, but admire greatly in them.
24.Someone who realizes you’re two separate people, and appreciate the differences.
25.Someone who can sense a mood problem, and not take it personally.
26.Someone who understands the difference between PMS, and a real problem.
27.Someone who can make you happy when you’re sad.
28.Someone who tells you the truth even if you don’t want to hear it.
29.Someone who will not hurt you intentionally.
30.Someone who is a sweet, romantic person who cherish you no matter what.
31.Someone that you can laugh with.
32.Someone who you can feel comfortable with and that you don’t care what kind of weird stuff they see you do because you know they will still love you no matter what.
33.Someone who will love you in spite of your little idiosyncrasies.
34.Someone that would do anything to show you how much they care.
35.Someone who is a great pal, a great kisser, and a great lover!
36.Someone who allows you to be yourself around them.
37.Someone who will respect you. Someone who cherishes your hopes and is kind to your dreams.
38.Someone who knows you’re not perfect, but treats you as though you are.
39.Someone who listens with their heart and is your source of inspiration.
40.Someone who loves you with all their heart and soul.

I believed the guy I chose should meet most of the quality that makes him my best partner:p

Enjoying serenity of home

2009-03-15T14:49:00.003+08:00

The long weekend was a welcoming change from the stressful time I had at work. I had looked forward to this long weekend as a time for me to rest, relax and rejuvenate but sadly I could do it as well as I would have loved to.

There arent many weekends that I spend on my own at home. Most weekends mum is at home with me or I will be out for shopping or gathering.

For some reason, I am enjoying the serenity of home today. Maybe because is raining day and I am too lazy to go out. Managed to catch some beauty sleep too.

Now I am chilling out at home thinking what to do the rest of today.

Give Up Your Seat for the needy!

2009-03-14T21:38:00.002+08:00

How do you know who to give your seat to on the MRT ?

The loose guideline is what’s printed on signs: “Please offer this seat to someone who needs it more than you do.”

We know that “someone who needs it more than you do” typically refers to the elderly, the pregnant and the handicapped.

But why are people giving up their seat to me??? I'm not even pregnant!!! I know there is no fixed rule and we’re supposed to make intuitive judgement calls case by case.

I encountered this case mutiple times. I have been mistaken a couple of times for being pregnant on the MRT : Someone had offered his seat to ME! I glared at him and said, “I’m not pregnant!”. I'm just happens to have a very large belly. Yes, I feel offended. You caused so much embarrassment for ME when you offer your seat to ME, wrong person! So sickening!

Please STOP eyeing@@ at my large belly!!!

爱就一个字 By 張信哲

2009-03-13T01:25:00.008+08:00

It's a really beautiful song when i listen this again from FM933... Wow! This is an old song in my xxx days..

爱就一个字。
美好的回忆只有一次。
眼泪却可以一直流下去。

拨开天空的乌云
像蓝丝绒一样美丽
我为你翻山越岭
却无心看风景
我想你身不由己
每个念头有新的梦境
但愿你没忘记
我永远保护你
不管风雨的打击全心全意
两个人相互辉映
光芒胜过夜晚繁星
我为你翻山越岭却无心看风景
我想你鼓足勇气凭
爱的地图散播讯息
但愿你没忘记
我永远保护你
从此不必再流浪找寻
爱就一个字我只说一次
你知道我只会用行动表示
烟花太放肆守住了坚持看
我为你孤注一掷
爱就一个字我只说一次
恐怕听见的人勾起了相思
任老的城市搜索你的影子
让你幸福我愿意试
让你幸福是我一生在乎的事

Interesting Conversation with my god-son!

2009-03-11T20:44:00.003+08:00

I had an interesting conversation with my god son over the phone today.

He was munching halfway thru his mouthful of cheeseburger while having a conversation with me:
He asked: 乾-Mummy, why you didnt bring bibi(refering to him) out shop shop huh?
I replied: Because I'm busy work work, no work work cannot bring bibi shop shop. So be good boi k.
He replied: Okay!
He asked:乾-Mummy, can I ask you a question?
I replied:Yes bibi, what is it?
He asked:Can I marry you? (Huh??... I burst out laughing and said tenderly to him. )
I replied: Bibi, 乾-Mummy loves you very much and I'm very happy you wanna marry me but 乾-Mummy can't marry you.
He asked:But why 乾-Mummy ? Why can't you marry me? Then I can't marry anybody else. I just want to marry you, 乾-Mummy . You're my Darling 乾-Mummy!

So sweet of him right?
I proceeded to explain what 'marry' is but as to how much he absorbed my explanation...

I said:乾-Mummy is really getting old and looked ugly.So you cant marry old woman.
He replied:You are not ugly, you are so beautiful. You look like a Princess!!

He is always so sweet to me.

One Hundred i

2009-03-02T22:12:00.002+08:00

100 things about i that you may be reading for the first time:

100. i love reading.

99. i have heights phobia.

98. i wear my watch on my left hand.

97. i hate the sight and smell of blood.

96. i do not like caterpillars, maggots, worms and all that stuffs.

95. i hate washing toilets.

94. i love chocolate ice-cream with thin waffles.

93. i do not take cockles.

92. i once talked to my senior in school for 8 hours straight - until 4am in the morning!

91. i do not take beef and raw stuff.

90. i love to cook but hate washing up after that.

89. i eat blanched brocolli to lose weight.

88. i like to have a lot of freedom.

87. i like spicy food.

86. i like green tea.

85. i also like wheatgrass drink.

84. i like purple color.

83. i prefer to drink plain water when it's warm because it tastes funny when it's at room temperature.

82. i once sewed a kimono dress for my barbie doll.

81. i look fugly and scary when i woke up in the morning.

80. i must shower at least twice everyday.

79. i like to have gathering and catch up session with my friends and peers.

78. i like putting the clothes in the washing machine for washing but hate taking them out for hanging.

77. i curse when i'm crossed.

76. i do not watch ghost movies.

75. i don't own any asset now.

74. i like to be alone. Sometimes.

73. i can make my own fruit drink but i think it tastes weird.

72. i don't like men who secretly steal glances at other girls when they are with their partners.

71. i like men with a good sense of humour because i'm a full-of-nonsense-girl.

70. i like flowers, just not chrysanthemun.

69. i like gadgets (not those chain, handcuffs or whip types, ok).

68. i don't like men who come too close to me when they are talking. i don't like to breathe in what they breathe out!

67. i enjoy going to the movies.

66. i love dim sum. Typical Cantonese gal.

65. i love Mos Burger' french fries.

64. i can drive really well. My driving-instructors think otherwise.

63. i don't like to make the first move on a guy even if i like him. (i'm still stuck in my mother's time)

62. i'm smart. Like totally smart! I'm his smartie.

61. i like Christmas.

60. i like to shop alone when im down.

59. i love heels from Charles & Keith.

58. i eat to live but sometimes i think i live to eat!

57. i hate cockcroaches. Will scream like mad when i saw it.

56. i won't bite unless i find you really offensive.

55. i like Jay Chou songs.

54. i want to try Detoxing. Can lose a few pounds you know.

53. i like to watch movies that have very good-looking male leads and very beautiful female-leads. All the male leads must either be very very rich or very very powderful and the female leads must either be very very poor or outcasts. Ahh, you can bring in the popcorn now!

52. i love Barney, the purple dinosaur.(My fav color)

51. i'm quite observant.

50. i've strong feeling.

49. i used to have twelve suitors all at one go. (when im 21 and 2 years back)

48. i always have strong craving for teh c siu dai.

47. i can boil very delicious soup.

46. i love myself.

45. i love to eat cooked veggie.

44. i have phobia in learning swimming.

43. i love steamed corn with lot of margerine.

42. i don't like to work.

41. i like SK II. That's why i have "ok" skin complexion.

40. i like to eat baked bean with hot dog and scramble egg for breakfast.

39. i'm good at reading minds.

38. i don't like to sleep alone.

37. i can down ten cans of green tea in five minutes. i know i am Amazing!

36. i pray everyday that money can drop from the sky.

35. i love chocolates esp those with nuts.

34. i love Coach and LV.

33. i love desserts.

32. i am super good at acting (only to uninteresting-over-eager male species in pub).

31. i laugh easily.

30. i'm scared of ghosts, monsters, spirits, etc.

29. i read the wall street journal.

28. i can talk and listen at the same time. Again, i am Amazing.

27. i look good in black.

26. i think all men should help out in houseworks.

25. i always get irritated with those high pitch voice.

24. i like mature thinking men. Really!

23. i actually enjoy sleeping during the movies.

22. i love plain food because i have nothing better to eat or when im sick.

21. i'm very good at maths but not those financial theory.

20. i enjoy cleaning up my room.

19. i love bamboo rice.

18. i believe that if i unskin an apple at 12midnite while looking into the mirror, i'll see my future partner.

17. i like licking my fingers, especially after having KFC.

16. i can set your heart on fire with just one stare.

15. i enjoy plane rides.

14. i think men who help out with houseworks are really cute.

13. i am funny.

12. i've got two temporary tattoos before.

11. i can spend hours at the supermarket.

10. i cry easily. Esp during PMS.

09. i undergo 6 months physiotherapy before.

08. i can be fierce at times.

07. i do not like to fight over thing with others.

06. i can't tolerance betrayal.

05. i don't enjoy eating popcorn unless i'm at the movies.

04. i can make you remember me forever.

03. i can also make myself forget about you at the same time.

02. i'm currently having a hard time overcome something but i'm not telling you what's happen!!

01. do you actually believe all that you read here??=)

Haha.. that was my "One Hundred i" list i did sometime in 2009 on my blog.

Relationship being like a piece of blank paper

2009-03-02T20:53:00.002+08:00

A quote from someone.

about relationship being like a piece of blank paper. Both of you starts with a clean sheet of paper and initially both of you will be happily writing your story on it. Over time, one may be tired and write less and the other party has to put in extra effort and fill in the space. Sometimes, it might be the other way round and one party have to compromise or give in or put more effort to ensure the words keep flowing. If either party chooses to stop writing or chooses to write on another piece of paper, the story just can't go on. It's as simple as that.

Shallow, The Name Is Man

2009-02-28T00:13:00.002+08:00

I do wonder sometimes, what men are looking for in a woman?
Quite often, I am asked what I am looking for in a man, so how about me turning the table around and ask you guys instead?

From these 5Bs, namely: Beauty, Body, Boobs, Butts, Brain, which will you be most interested in? Oh, most of my guy friends give me the crap that personality is most important.. However I know this might not be the true answer, men are indeed shallow when it comes to women. Of course, not all of them.

Who doesn't like a pretty face? I will also take a second look if I walk past a 'handsome' man. Beauty is quite subjective. What you think is beautiful may look like 'ship wreckage' to another! Truthfully, I think first impression counts. At least if I like how you look, I won't find you annoying to begin with!

Few months back, I was at a pub with my sis and her friends. When she went to the ladies, a guy came over with his friend and started chatting me up.

He asked me:

HIM: "What is a pretty girl like you doing here alone?"
ME: "I am with a friend and she just happened to visit the ladies"
HIM:"Are you a local?"

ME:"No, not exactly" (Well, well, I decide to play along a little . . .)
HIM:"Where are you from?"
ME:"Taiwan" I answered..
HIM:"No wonder. You have nice features and your eyes are big. Most Taiwanese girls are very beautiful. So what are you doing here, on holiday or you're staying here?"

ME:"Holiday with my family"
HIM:"Errrr… as in husband or?"
ME:"Yes, with my husband"

HIM:"Oh..your husband is one lucky guy but where is he"
ME:"He's with friends - boys nite out"
HIM:"Oh, you are not afraid he is out with girls"
ME:"Sometimes it's best not to know too much. Ignorance is bliss"

HIM:"You are so pretty. If you are not married, I would love to date you. Actually, I don't mind you having a husband"
ME:"But I MIND!" (Another jerks!)

With that, he quickly excused himself . . . You can see, that guy could well be married too!

Is it really that fun in meaningless and frivolous affairs? Maybe so.

Forbidden fruit is poisonous, deadly but yet has this natural appeal that most men desire to have just a little bite. Lust. One of the seven sins.

Apple tastes sweeter when it's stolen, is it?

I Love You or You Love Me

2009-02-26T23:41:00.003+08:00

Can love ever be that simple?

I remember when i was young, i often dream of falling passionately in love with an imaginary man who will ride a white horse wearing that shining armour. Hmm...Ok, forget about the horse and the armour, maybe a sporty motorbike and a simple plain white shirt will do. As long as he loves me to heaven, i will marry him for sure..........

Then as i grow older, i realised, it's not enough just to have some guy who loves you dearly. It's not enough even if he's willing to fly you to the moon or get you that huge red rock from Mars or get the biggest diamond in the world. Not when you don't even love him that little bit.

I began to also understand that having a relationship with some man who doesn't give two hoots about you won't work either. Especially when you happened to love that man madly to the sky, ever ready to start the bungee jumping trend down from New Asia Bar if he ever casually asked you to.(Just an example!)

So, tell me, which is better:

"To marry someone you love to death or to spend the rest of your life with someone you don’t love but who loves you very much?"

For me, i want to marry someone whom i love and one who loves me back. Because only then can i be truly happy.

Tell me, am i too idealistic?

Lappy Down AGAIN!!!

2009-02-17T23:35:00.005+08:00

Sorry everyone! My lappy is down again last week... But it is working well and in top good condition after some help from few person esp HIM.... He is really sweet and a darling to me...Spend the whole day download all the software i need and finding ways to improve it and make it as if it is brand new for me... Even went down to SIM LIN during his busy working schedule to upgrade my RAM(Hopefully din loss any deal) and sent it back to my office door step to me... Save all the hassle and frustration dealing with this stupid lappy for me... FYI...Im an IT nerd:( ...............

Gathering for CNY Dinner

2009-02-05T23:43:00.003+08:00

Met with some great friends to gossip share concern we have about others and over yu sheng and a wonderfully insanely filling zi char dinner.After which we adjourn to 2-mth old Firestation at Bukit Timah, an old fire station turned Art/Media mini-hub with 2 chill out joints.

Yes, like Dempsey. And it is call Jaywalk! The atmosphere is average and so-so, is all my great friends make the difference of this gathering..... Cheers:)

Oh oh oh… And they have Hoegaarden and Stella on the tap! Thank MazdaGal!

Happy lunar new year AGAIN!!!

Busy, Fun then Sick....

2009-01-19T23:17:00.006+08:00

I have had another full fun weekend in the chalet. I really love all spare time I get....and my schedule is full for sure.. I had a lot of fun though. When I got home on Sunday after my chalet I fell asleep immediately. I woke up briefly and then fell asleep on the couch and finally decided to go back to bed. Yup it was a day of sleep. It was a lot of fun in the chalet. We were happy to see everyone had a good time catching up as well as bonding time.

For the first time, i really feels someone is standing there encouraging you and supporting you and loving you as you go along with the rest of the crowd. He makes it easier for me to face the crowd. It feels so good when you know he is planning every step of the way for you and you trust him along the way. And he said, silly gal I just want let you feel comfortable with them. How great is that!

I am feeling the effects in this hectic month. I think I might have phnumonia or something because I keep fighting something and its not getting any better. Time for the doctor. I have swollen glands and a sore throat that keeps calming down and then flairing up again:( Doc advised me to cut down on my activities and have sufficient rest everyday. Most important, stay away from hot, spicy and deep fried stuff.

Another busy time, it never ends

2009-01-12T00:06:00.003+08:00

It has been another busy weekend. Recently, I have had a few partys to attend and gathering events and work and shopping. I felt a bit guilty not being home and doing chores and stuff but life is short and it was an opportunity that I am glad I did not miss out on.. My mum is always so wonderful, she handles all the chores pretty well and let me enjoy myself outside. I feel like the luckiest girl in the world.

Life is wonderful, it really is esp with mum around:)

My Xmas gift from him

2009-01-11T23:37:00.005+08:00

Everyone was asking me what did I got for Xmas from him. He got me something that makes me so happy and is a bouquet of "Words of love"....He sees me as someone with lots of love and joy and happiness to give and he is right about that. I am full of such love and happiness and it is because "SOMEONE" is so easy for him to love....

What Should You Resolve to Change Next Year?

2008-12-30T15:01:00.001+08:00

You Should Make 1 Resolution

Reduce Stress Overall

What Should You Resolve to Change Next Year?

Are You A Girl Or Woman?

2008-12-30T14:52:00.002+08:00

You Are A Woman!

Congratulations, you've made it to adulthood.

You're emotionally mature, responsible, and unlikely to act out.

You accept that life is hard - and do your best to keep things upbeat.

This makes you the perfect girlfriend... or even wife!

Are You A Girl Or a Woman?

Be thankful

2008-12-30T13:56:00.002+08:00

I wanted to take a moment of this final quiet time to reflect on all the things I am thankful for this year. It has been an amazing time in my life, likely one of the best years ever. It is much easier to succeed if you have a lot of friends standing there encouraging you and supporting you and loving you as you go along.

I am thankful for my health and my home.

I am thankful for family and friends who love me. They gave me a lot of support, listened patiently to my crys and gave me hugs and talked to me. I am especially grateful to them.

I am thankful for having great colleagues who work hand in hand to get everything done. The people at my job love me and respect me and they care deeply for me.

I am thankful for a great working environment that I enjoy and that holds wonderful possibility in the future.

I am thankful for an understanding boss, she is showing me that it is ok to be human and make mistakes and it is ok to feel things. Whats important to remember is that I am human and mistakes are learning opportunities and my boss is someone I can learn from not someone who will judge me. What a wonderful feeling to understand that!

I am thankful for the opportunity to work. How great is that!

I am thankful for a wonderful someone like him who would be standing there for me to lean on.

I feel so truly blessed and I feel so complete. I trust that things today are exactly as they need to be. Have a happy new year! I hope my life will filled with laughter and love.

Joanne & Ryan's Wedding

2008-12-29T20:22:00.005+08:00

I attended my best friend’s wedding @ Shangri-La Rasa Sentosa Resort last Sat. I had a fantastic time with everyone down there and basically just hung around with my secondary school friends. Time flies, everyone has their own timetable now.

While we had a fantastic time and were so happy to see our friends get married, when I went for a walk on the resort areas are very clean. The beach water down there is both warm and see-through, which makes for a much nicer experience.Hope that the resort will maintain their beautiful beaches long into the future.Rasa Sentosa Resort is such a gorgeous place and I would hate to see it ruined.

And lastly, congrats to our friends for getting married! May you both have a happy and healthy life together, and see you at Lunar New Year for Mahjong Session!

Our group photo for the wedding:

Song Recommendation for Dec 2008: 家後 By 江惠

2008-12-28T21:10:00.002+08:00

让我们一起共勉之。。。。。很有意思的一首歌.

好感动的一首歌！真的唱出女人的心情！It's touching song (: makes me tears everytime.

A special gift from a great pal!

2008-12-28T20:23:00.005+08:00

Few weeks ago after I came back for my Ku Ching trip, I received a special gift from my great pal. She turn up in one of our gathering for Christmas gift exchange @ Boat Quay... A rare guest for us as she is station oversea due to work commitment. We will have a simple triple celebration for Christmas, December birthday (those frenz birthday which falls in December) and year end celebration. That night is a gd catch up session with most of them as i hardly go out for drinks with them recently.

This is what i get from my great pal:

Rhodium-plated pendant with open heart in clear crystal pave and smaller heart-cut crystal.

It's really suit me well. Good taste!!! Thanks:)

Surprise!!!

2008-12-27T23:04:00.003+08:00

I’m so dead tired today. I was really walking all over the place in my office for today. Things just keep hitting you and you have to settle them. And I was not using my brain.

Luckily I am seeing mark today.He is coming to fetch me home after work... But seriously, I think that he love me more than i love him. He always says that he loves me and his action show..He will try to sms me and say that he misses me no matter how busy he was. I can see that my bf is willing to pay for small little things without prompting from me too.

He is really the guy in this love. Pay for everything like the drinks, meals and etc ...or wait for me during our date, walk me to door step, carry all the heavy stuff and etc... There are so many things that I see in him like his manner of talking and his thoughtfulness.

Love can be such a sweet affair. I really have to work out the best in this moment and in this relationship.

Dad's Birthday- 12 Dec 08

2008-12-27T22:22:00.005+08:00

Celebrations of my dad's birthday was on the actual day itself. He wanted to have dinner @ Soup Restaurant so i suggested we went to one of the outlet at Causeway point... I tried my best to knock off at 5.30pm sharp, just for my dad. He is the most important person in my life.. Guess because he makes so much changes in my life. My dad provides the lion's share of income to the family and he will try his best to give me whatever he can. This is the sweetest thing in the world!

This is my dad

We ordered his fav Samsui Ginger Chicken and some other dishes.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!!!

- 7 things-

2008-12-14T13:30:00.003+08:00

Why 7 and not 8? Because I'm born on a 7th if you're wondering.7 is a special number for me too.

7 things that scare me
1. any insect
2. the dark....
3. ghost
4. great heights(like bungee jump or wadever)
5. being penniless
6. death...(especially that i dont know what happens the moment i close my eyes)
7. death of my family members or friends..cant imagine that happens...

7 things that i like the most
1. Applying mask
2. Shopping
3. Getting out of Singapore makes me happy
4. Watching HongKong drama
5. Chocolates
6. Gathering & Eating session
7. LV & Coach

7 things i said the most
1. Orh
2. Huh
3. Wa lao
4. Are you sure?
5. Aiyo
6. 不要啦
7. Okok

7 things I plan to do before I die
1. give my family a better life
2. lose weight
3. get married
4. have babies
5. have assets (haha!)
6. earn at least a million...USD!
7. travel to many places. ...

7 random facts about me
1. I almost drowned when i was 3 at a swimming pool, so until now i dont really like the prospect of going to learn swimming.
2. I like things organised and neat.
3. I cannot stand wet toliet floors.. especially when i go overseas or chalet..
4. I only use SK II
5. I like shopping & dim sum...
6. I cannot go out without any accessories
7. I'm a homely person.

7 important things in my bag
1. handphone
2. wallet
3. tissues
4. keys
5. hair pins or clips
6. hand cream
7. sweets

My Recent Strength In Life :")

2008-12-11T21:22:00.002+08:00

Things are not going really well for me in work and my health recently.... Thanks to him that I still get to have my certain time of happiness and enjoyment of life after listening to his songs..

Purpose of a partner

2008-12-10T23:41:00.005+08:00

We went to fish prawns last friday which is my day off... Even though the weather is humid but is a good interaction session with him.. Both of us are so busy with work, friends and family... It's a catching up session too...

As usual, he will start a conversation first.....

Nigel: Do you know why you need to have a boyfriend in your life?

Me: Hmm.....Because I need someone that I can lean on his shoulder when im tired.

Nigel: Not only that....You need someone to take care of you (or for you to take care of) or someone to share your life with.

Me: But Im pretty much an independent person, so don't worry.

Nigel: Being independent does not equate to being Ms Know-it-all. Ms Independent is someone who knows how to seek help when she needs one.

Me: “Yessssss”. No wonder you're in sale....

Nigel: How come no prawn eat my bait???

Me: .....(In my heart: They're scared away by your preaching of cos! hahhha)

Total: 7 prawns was caught and all landed in my stomach.... Yummy yummy...

Make someone(ME!!!) else happy:)

2008-12-07T18:26:00.004+08:00

Our conversation over the phone today while im rushing for my project....
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Nigel: I try to make AT LEAST my wife happy everyday.
Me: How?
Nigel: Well, I just tune in to her needs and wants and take it from there. I suppose that is exactly the same way to make someone else happy, today and everyday! So I will consider this to be something worth doing and continuing to do.
Me:(Stay calm replied) Really ah, okay loh...(But really melt my heart after hearing this.. shh shh!!!).
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Must learning to be grateful for what he done for me:)

Song Recommendation for Dec 2008: Dandelion's Promise 蒲公英的約定 By 周杰倫

2008-12-04T22:04:00.003+08:00

"The One"

2008-12-04T20:26:00.005+08:00

After all these years. Thinking back.. I've got only a few clues. I know..

- when he cares about me and whatever is going on with me, no matter how little tiny thing it is.

- when we care about how each other feels, without becoming obsessed with one's own feelings, after some unfortunate situations.

- when I am totally upset or depressed, and he lets me cry on his shoulder, holds me, kisses me on my forehead, keeps telling me that I'll be okay and that I always look good even though there is a big bruise on my forehead from the night I slammed my head into a door.

- when we are comfortable with each other's company even though no word has been said.

- when we know each other well enough to know how we will react to some situations.

"The one" suits us at a particular time in our life. I don't have the same expectations in life. So, all my ex couldn't be "the one" (even if I thought at that time, he was) as we evolved at different moments and have, now different goals in life.

Happy to say that he is the one.

He is the one who gave me a ring even though we had just began.

He is the one who will give me all the best things in the world.

He is the one who was more worried for my future than anyone else.

He is the one who knew what to do when I breakdown in the middle of the night.

He is the one who made me laugh and cry and laugh again.

He is the one who kiss my forehead almost every time he had to go.

He is the one who never ever wanted me to get wet in the rain.

He is the one who spent xxx digits on phone bill just to talk to me.

He is the one who scolds me when I feel stupid.

He is the one who make me feel like I am the luckiest girl in the world.

He is the one (not only him of cos), who says I'm pretty.

He is the one who doesn't mind my fats as long as I'm okay with it.

He is the one who make me feel I'm special.

He is the one whom I'm head over heels in love with.

He is the one who hugs me when I feel low/moody.

He is the one supporting me to do anything I want as long as I'm happy.

He is the guy whom I think I might marry one day.

He is my dear......Thank you for all you have done for me!

Any recommendation for mobile phone?

2008-11-15T16:18:00.002+08:00

I'm looking around for mobile phone... Any model & brand for recommendation?

My requirements:
1) Must be slim and compact
2) MP3 & MP4
3) At least with 3.5 Mega pixel camera
4) User-friendly
5) Bluetooth
6) Infrared
7) Nice colorful screen, great themes and games

Back from the getaway…

2008-11-15T14:22:00.005+08:00

Having lived in the city of concrete walls and replicas of boring green trees for my whole life, seeing nature as it really is............

The past few days, I rested my head and gave myself a break.
I know my plan and purpose of the holiday was to go sort out my thoughts.
But the trip was so relaxing & calming that I had to give myself a break to enjoy the moments of absolute nothingness.
Pardon the un-made-up faces though.
In moments of absolute nothingness, there’s nothing on my face.

moments alone…
*Peace*

Some of my photos which are not extremely sharp, are taken by handphone. The sky was still dark with the only source of brightness from the moon and stars. There wasn’t a single soul on the beach.

My mind was clear and empty. Not thinking of anything in particular.
As in, when you try to concentrate on thinking of nothing, you are ironically, actually thinking of something.You are thinking of trying to think of nothing. Get it?
I really can’t describe that feeling!

The most beautiful part of my trip, I sort out all my thoughts when I overheard someone saying this to his beloved one next to him "Let's forget abt the past...Just being with you is enough for me to have a great time"...

31 Oct 2008, 1.05pm

2008-11-01T20:52:00.006+08:00

Received this bouquet of sunflowers on Friday!

Thank for the beautiful sunflower bouquet...so sweet of my friend since I rarely receive "SUNFLOWER"(Did you get the hint???)....

Chewy Junior

2008-11-01T20:35:00.003+08:00

This is not your usual donuts or cream puffs. It is a fusion between Cream Papa and Donut Factory!

Really chewy!I love the texture and the feel of it.They also have many different flavours for you to choose from, for example, strawberry, blueberry, oreo etc.

I tried the oreo one and it was fine, but one thing about it is that the taste gets a little overpowering after eating 3 quarter of it.
Another big down point about chewy junior is that it is very messy to eat. I suppose because they want it to looks nice, so the flavouring is put on the top of the dough(or whatever you call the bun) and when you bite, the cream or topping will be all over you lips and mouth, thus, it’s not something that i will advise you to eat outside. Maybe if you buy it home, it’ll be better.

Movies:我的最爱

2008-11-01T20:27:00.002+08:00

L for Love
L for Lies

背叛是什么滋味... 报复又会得到快乐吗?
我看了这部电影.

在爱情里,大家在寻找什么呢?

祝福 = 幸福 ?
选择祝福, 就得到幸福... 似乎说得简单, 做的难.

朋友的故事启发了我, 要珍惜眼前人.
我感到安慰, 但偶尔我也会觉得不满足, 不快乐... 自私等等

人生才几十年, 何必让自己不快乐呢? 对不对, 不如把这些时间用在"比如帮助人啊, 完成梦想, 赚多点钱, 呵呵!" 所以我又学会了"知足常乐" 哈哈... 我的四个字成语, 可能写错, 不管啦. 明白就好.

My Nici Monkey-Thank dearie :)

2008-10-30T22:15:00.002+08:00

I have been looking around for this Nici Monkey for quite some time. My dearie got it for me and surprised me on Tuesday. I was so happy and wanna give her my kiss for the day.... I was feeling kinda depressed lately (work, health and some personal stuff) and this gift really brighten up my day... hahaha... thank dearie!

24 Oct 2008, 05:27pm

2008-10-30T21:19:00.011+08:00

I was thrilled, shocked and a million other feelings I can’t put into words when i received this bouquet of roses from him............
Is it just the beginning of our route to our Happily ever after???

小女人

2008-10-26T11:51:00.003+08:00

One of my "friend" sms me relatively recently to ask me out…

HIM:Hey, want to head out for drinks?
ME:Nope. Quite busy these day
HIM:Busy dating?
ME:Busy with a lot of programs.
HIM:I saw you with another guy the other day. Is he the ONE???

I didn’t bother to reply. Seriously, what was his point???
To see if I would go out with him despite having a significant party?
It’s not as if he haven’t got turned down enough by ME before.

For some unknown reasons, I felt abit of happiness and glee.(小女人 's feeling)
Like you know… I kinda ‘belong’ to someone in other people eyes. So satisfying, it’s like a kind of secure feeling ba. HAHA!

Song Recommendation for Oct 2008:The Longest Movie 最長的電影 By 周杰倫

2008-10-25T15:35:00.003+08:00

我們的開始　是很長的電影
放映了三年　我票都還留著

冰上的芭蕾　腦海中還在旋轉
望著妳　慢慢忘記妳

＃朦朧的時間　我們溜了多遠
　冰刀劃的圈　圈起了誰改變
　如果再重來　會不會稍嫌狼狽
　愛是不是不開口才珍貴

＊再給我兩分鐘　讓我把記憶結成冰
　別融化了眼淚　妳妝都花了要我怎麼記得
　祈禱你將我忘了吧祈禱你將我忘了吧
　妳說妳會哭　不是因為在乎

Repeat ＃,＊,＊

Is this what you really want????

2008-10-18T12:07:00.002+08:00

Is this what you really want?

How many times have you asked yourself this question till now?

Being taken for granted and being expected to know everything and anything..

Being taken for granted that you will and should know what to do when something happens..

Being taken for granted that you should not bother other people unless it is really required..

Being taken for granted that everything is part of the whole package..

Even thou you were never told about alot of issues during the initial stage..

Even thou you were never told about alot of things..

Even thou you are shocked..

Even thou you have never been trained in those aspects..

Even thou you know nuts about those stuffs..

Is this...

What you really want???

Are you...Really happy???

Part time:Aunt Agony

2008-10-12T23:24:00.004+08:00

xxx called me up today.... Im surprised to receive her after some many years.... She was crying over the side of the phone. Im so worried abt her.... Our conversation are as follows:

xxx: Hello Sis, *weeping* *weeping*
Me: Hello, what's happen to you? Dont cry first.. Calm down and we can have a good talk...
xxx: I'm so confused.....
Me: hmmm... confused abt what?
xxx:.......
Me: R/s?
xxx: Ya lor, he will never marry me because i am not the type of wife he is looking for.
Me: huh? Y did he say that?
xxx: because i can't do simple housework properly, can't cook, we always quarrel over simple and minor stuff, difference in character etc..
Me:love can surpass "can't do simple housework properly, can't cook, we always quarrel over simple and minor stuff, difference in character etc". well, you can always learn too. nothing is impossible if both of you want to work this relationship out.
xxx: i was very sad upon hearing that. i don't know what i should do? what will you do if you were me?
Me: I'll ask myself what do I want in this relationship? do I ultimately want to marry him or do I just want a soul mate?
xxx: other problem is communication. i feel that i can't get communicate well with him. whenever we got an argument, he will definitely insist that i am wrong and he's right. and most of the time, i have to give in to him. i don't know why, but in the end i will still give in to him. maybe he don't love me as much as i love him. (Sound so familiar to me......)
Me: Don't you find such an emotionally driven and draining relationship tiring?
xxx: Of cos la... But what to do...
Me: well, if getting married eventually is a commitment you are seeking in a bf, I guess you know what should be your next course of action. Don't wait anymore for a relationship that doesn't bear fruit. Don't waste your youth. You deserve to have somebody who loves u as much as u love him. (My dearie shared this with me! Thank:))
xxx: Thank Sis, i know what to do le... I feel better le...
Me: Np:) ...........................................

Only time will tell…

2008-10-12T01:47:00.002+08:00

Quote by someone:

"if a relationship is based on infatuation, love or just plain lust."
"if a relationship is stemmed from love, happiness or desperation."

I had went through negligible relationships that are based on lust, and some infatuation.
I had went ahead to indulge in a relationship because I love… or because he makes me happy. I’ve had a lot of relationships and believed only time will tell...................

.....................

2008-10-12T01:38:00.003+08:00

You know you’ve got issues when almost every guy you’ve dated,
at one point or the other all end up saying, "I can’t mind read."
And if u’re lucky (or not so lucky in this instance) enough that the guy’s a sensitive one,
he would end up saying too that, "You keep it inside and don’t talk about it anymore."

"Someone"

2008-10-12T01:28:00.002+08:00

It’s easy to have happy moments with someone, but it is finding someone who would work out the not so happy moments that is the most crucial thing in a relationship.

Have I found that someone in my life??? ...........................................

Deep Though

2008-10-12T01:24:00.002+08:00

I have a supportive caring family,
a handful of people who I know are always there,
a nice enjoyable job,
a simple laid back life.
But why do I still feel so lost sometimes…
Why do I constantly feel that I’m not enough for myself?
Did I missed out something in my life?

Freedom

2008-10-12T01:18:00.002+08:00

I am not submissive to my other half and my parents because I totally don’t like being controlled.It’s TWO very different story, deciding to submit or being told to do it. Recently my "unknown" had been calling me on a daily basis, smsing me on a hourly basis and bugging me at […] :(

嗨…

2008-10-12T01:05:00.002+08:00

身为一个大/小女人(?)，我坚持认为事业是应该让男人来打拼的。
一个大男人在外打拼一番事业，为的就是要有更美好舒适的未来。
因为如此，我不会想要耽误一个男人的事业发展。
我本身始终能接受默默地在背后支持着一个自己爱的人。
因为陪伴着自己爱的男人共度一生就象是我自己的使命。

我曾经以为在一个男人背后默默的等待是一件相当容易的事。
但直到我轻身体会到一个人被透明地抛在后头时，我才发现其实这一点都不容易。
无言的呵护，无期限的等待，无承诺的未来…
有多少人能无条件的做到这些呢？
我曾经因为如此局面而发现原来爱情并不是伟大的。
爱情是自私的。
因为我们始终都想得到回报－对方的爱。
所为 once bitten, twice shy… 我已学会了不牺牲自己。
一切看得开一点，一切过得少忧虑一点，一切也走得潇洒一点.

说真的，我已好久未轰轰烈烈地热恋一番了.
多少也或许已忘了要怎么维护一段感情.
对自己太没信心，所以不敢想于太多… 要求太多… 只想始终能得到快乐。
我想我该也算是个为快乐而活的大/小女人吧…

P/S: 其实写到这里，我突然有一股冲动想把这网上日记给关了。总觉得自己因为这儿，而把 ‘自己’ 呈现在一个不怎么好的灯光下。嗨…

Lappy Down!!!

2008-10-12T00:55:00.002+08:00

My lappy was down and sent for 2 weeks repairs and upgrading! I'm so handicap w/o my lappy.

I finally sat myself down with my newly rebooted & upgraded lappy and realise my biggest, most important, most personal folder in my laptop is missing!

I spend 15mins frantically searching and I’m now convinced it’s really gone…

I lost:
All my past work project portfolios and resumes.
All my cherished messages and conversation logs I had kept and encrypted.
All my video files. (except for the unimportant ones I kept in a separate folder)
All my personal pictures I had stored separately from the rest.
If I can use only 1 word now to describe my current feelings,the word would be ‘Devastated‘
I swear henceforth never to upgrade or do any changes to my lappy.
It’s not anybody’s fault but my own. Now everything new… I not familiar with some of the softwares.I can’t find CDs of my old programs I use, and lost all my important files.

I hate changes.
I farking hate changes.
It sucks feeling the tears welling up in my eyes.
$#&$^#@% the people who say 旧的不去，新的不来。

Time & Love

2008-08-19T22:29:00.002+08:00

I personally like this story alot...so though of sharing with u guys...enjoy reading...

Once upon a time, there was an island where all feelings lived:Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others including Love.

One day it was announced to the feelings that the island wouldsink, so all repaired their boats and left. Love was the onlyone who stayed. Love wanted to persevere until the last possible moment.

When the island was almost sinking, Love decided to ask forhelp. Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said,"Richness, can you take me with you?" Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you.

"Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel, "Vanity, please help me!" "I can't help you Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked for help, "Sadness, let me Go with you." "Oh...Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!

"Happiness passed by Love too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her!

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come Love, I will take you." Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that he even forgot to ask him his name.

When they arrived at dry land, the man went his own way. Love realizing how much he owed the man asked Knowledge, "Who helped me?"

"It was Time," Knowledge answered.

"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?

"Knowledge smiled with deep Wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

- Author Unknown

Hong Kong Disneyland

2008-08-17T17:29:00.004+08:00

My HK Disneyland pics are ready for viewing. Pretty tiring but it was fun. Let the pictures tell the story ba! :)

Too little time and too many things to do!

2008-08-17T17:17:00.001+08:00

Haven't blogged for 1 month! That's because life's been busier for me as compared to a few months ago. As we move on, we get busier and busier, and we see lesser and lesser blogs by ourselves. I feel guilty for leaving this website pretty abandoned for quite some time liao. But there's just too little time and too many things to do. Speaking of that, im busy with housekeeping now. So I gotta get back to clear my stuff. Take care! =)

Little Tim Sum place, Happy Valley @ Hong Kong

2008-07-28T22:19:00.016+08:00

Perhaps some of you wonder how do I gain 3kg within 3 days. Below are all the culprits:

Highly recommended this excellent timsum place (It is small, but the food is EXCELLENT!! Be prepared to queue up / wait though ...) @ Happy Valley in Hong Kong.

Add: G/F, 63 Sing Woo Road, Happy Valley, Hong KongTel: +852 2834 8893

Must try the delicious Char Siew Pao!

More goodies ...

The beancurd-skin stuffed timsum is incredible too, so were most of the other dishes ... We ordered a LOT of food!

There was every conceivable timsum on the menu, and we ordered most of it ... including pork chops!

Time to say goodbye to this scrumptious timsum place ... After something like 50 orders of timsum!!!!

Woman's Fav

2008-07-23T23:10:00.004+08:00

Strictly no marking for the day, we went to Tampines Mall in the afternoon few weeks back.

The best present is my lovely dad agrees to buy a 0.31 Destinee solitare ring for my mum!Initially, my mum was thinking whether to upgrade her 0.22 Destinee solitare ring as the 2-year upgrade is ending soon.So, when we finally chanced upon a 0.31 Destinee which mum and I quite like it, I suddenly held back.

I am never a jewellery person. I don't desire diamonds at all. I don't give a damn about the carat size. To me, a 0.22 Destinee is more than enough. However, to my mum it matters a lot to her.
Even though she hardly even wear it!

So what makes her wanna upgrade it?
I guess it is due to peer influence and the temptation of upgrading a bigger carat without any depreciation value. After trying out various carats, she likes 0.3 the most. Any ring above 0.35 is just too big for her. She don't like the feeling of having such a big carat ring on her small finger lah.Nevertheless, she finds it hard to let go. But that 0.22 Destinee is the ring that my dad gave her as 25th year anniversary gift . This ring has so much sentimental value. How can she just upgrade like that?She rejected his proposal immediately. I comforted her while walking out from the shop.

After dinner at Aijisen, she finally made up her mind to buy the 0.31 Destinee. I were wondering how the mere size difference would matter. After witnessing the comparison, I were convinced that there IS an obvious difference in size. I tried to convince her that it would still be the same ring.

Well, except that it has grown slightly.

"People grow up. So does diamond." (this phrase must be made known to men ... *lol*)

Without further hesitation, my mum bade farewell to her 0.22 Destinee and welcomed 0.31 Destinee.Like what dad said, it's all fated.

Shopping, Shopping & Shopping

2008-07-23T22:12:00.011+08:00

This is what I really call 'LIFE'.
For the month of June till now, I've been doing lots of shopping.
Maybe this is the only way to de-stress myself (Excuse for myself.. hahaha)...
How can I resist such mega promotion and good bargain? (And I will face the music of settling incredulous credit card bills in the month of June & July!)

What I bought:

A Top, pant and skirt from Mango Up to 70% Sales!

Masks and a shimmer from Face Shop @ 20% discount each.

Masks from 我的美麗日記 @ 80 cents/pc (Thank to Jaycee's recommendation)

Top from Zara Up to 70% Sales!

1 tube & 1 pant from unknown shop sale @ 10 each/pc

Anger Management Part I

2008-07-13T18:09:00.004+08:00

Hmm....kind of funny....My peer seems to feel that I have controlled my temper recently and have noticed a change in me!!! They feel I'm no longer a hotheaded, volatile and rash ger I used to be...lol

Have I really changed?....Hmm...to be honest...I really dunno leh....but recently..maybe bcos I'm blessed with a supportive person around me, someone who always so patience and tolerance towards my stubborn temper...someone that make me smile when i need it most... someone always there for me without any complaints...someone who call me "Ci Xi Empress" .....so my "volcano" has not chance to erupt...lol

Maybe age is catching up...(ya lah..though I'm xx only)....nowadays.....I'm not so easily irritated....maybe got something to do with my life ba!....afterall..I do meet lots of people from all walk of life....so guess I'm more "immuned" to irritating ppl...

But hor...I still cant stand ppl who think they are the best in this world....those who think they are so smart and born with "nature beauty"but in actual fact, achieved nothing at all....gers who think every guy will fight over her...n guys who think every ger cant wait to bed with him! *puke*

Cool down!...lol......must be more cultured...*pui*..wahahaha...guess I'm just what I'm.....I still cant imagine myself trying to act gentle or ger ger....Mum oh mum..u certainly picked the wrong chinese name for mi.....waahahhaa...(oops!!! Dun spank my backside hor!!! Mummy)

Customized Decorations on the usually plain shoes

2008-07-01T22:08:00.005+08:00

This is about shoes - customized decorations on the usually plain shoes and I think it's quite an interesting selection to pick from. Cost would be estimated at about $20~$35.

This design is really for the casual streetwear - definitely eye-catching. At least I have never seen this design on the market in Singapore yet.

Not a bad design at all- quite presentable and cute-looking as well.

Any sponsor for me???

Take a look and see if you are interested:
http://e-quipoise.blogspot.com/

"Shop Till You Drop" may be a bad phase afterall

2008-06-29T23:06:00.002+08:00

No, I don't intend to blame the Great Singapore Sales nor the overcrowded SMRT that caused one lady to faint in the train between Orchard & Sommerset earlier last week. Perhaps she was just unwell.

She had her hands full of shopping bags. She stood alone in a train full of passengers. And she fainted.

She did that in such a slow motion. One second she was standing as silently as the rest of us. The next second she slowly slipped onto the floor.

It was a sad sight as she was clearly trying to maintain her consciousness as she gasped for air. It was heart-warming to witness how other passengers reacted promptly to empty their seats & guided the lady to sit or to lay on them. (She insisted to just occupy one seat and not to sleep on the rest, by the way.)

She weakly shook her head when one old lady asked her whether she had someone to call to. She nodded--visibly in gratitude--when two other passengers offered their help to bring her out to the next stop to get the SMRT staff's assistance.

And in the next stop, they went out without much problem despite the train being overcrowded as other passengers (those who were standing) making a way for the two samaritans assisting the lady to leave the train.

No, I am not one of the two, if that's what you are wondering. Thus, the story stopped here and no continuation to what happened to her.

Cute CJ7 外星狗,七仔 Plush or Toy or Doll

2008-06-29T22:31:00.003+08:00

Seriously I fall in love with 7 zhai, CJ7 外星狗,七仔 Plush or Toy or Doll =) I'm hugging this to sleep every night. Part of my childish act according to my mummy.... hahaha...
This is my birthday gift from 7 which is few months back. I didn't know the story behind this 七仔 until someone told me about it today. Someone also told me that this is a perfect gift for your loved ones(7, I gotta!)

Yan can cook, so am I...

2008-06-22T18:49:00.003+08:00

My mummy has to work today because of her childcare open house. This would mean that I do not have authentic home cooked cantonese soup today. This is a taboo for my health and skin. So I decide to cook dinner for everyone in the family. When is the last time I cook??? Oh my god, is 6 months back... Well, is not easy for a pamper princess like me to cook...Due to my last minute decision, I just cooked whatever stuff i can find in the fridge. No time to do marketing at this hours.

Dinner for the day:
1)Baby kai lan,
2)Prawns in tomato sauce
3)Omelette in minced pork, and
4)Carrots+pototoes+pork ribs soup. Yummylicious!

My parents give me a thumb for today's dinner... Hahaha... I always told them, I will give my very best shot in whatever things I want to do...

GSS- Great Singapore Sale

2008-06-18T22:18:00.006+08:00

I am so happy because I grab a lot of good bargains for myself. I simply cant resist the temptation of GSS esp those with good discounts. I hope won't burn a hole in my pocket:) hahaha. More to come....

Hectic Month................

2008-06-18T20:36:00.002+08:00

At last!!!! A day for me to rest at home...Haven got the time to update my blog since the last entry..busy with work,family gathering,frens gathering, shopping and attending wedding dinner..Most of the events are confirmed..currently busy with work, shopping, clubbing and dinner...blahz!
** Sorry Esther, I will update my recent events asap.

Wednesday Night's Out @ The Pump Room

2008-05-18T20:51:00.005+08:00

Our company organised beer buzz session @ The Pump Room - where the dance, music, drinks and the crowd are. We reached The Pump Room at around 7.15pm and it was not crowded at that time. Our first stop was the dinner buffet area,we needed to fill our stomachs first before the beer session start.

However, the whole place was jam-packed when reached 8plus. Every table was fully occupied with people toasting drinks and the bar counter was like a warzone - with glasses, jugs and bottles coming in and going out at an eye-popping place. Apparently, The Pump Room was already abuzz way before 10pm but it was still a great experience seeing all those people and of course the live band onstage to entertain the crowd.

All of The Pump Room’s beers are unfiltered, unpasturised, and have no added chemicals or flavours. Giving you the consumer a 100% natural, fresh, flavourful glass of beer everytime. I tried one of their resident handicrafted brew, The Pump Room Lager which is golden, crisp, clean and easy drinking.

I were musing about how drinks can bring out some extreme behaviours in people and most of the time, people get high over drinks for two major reasons - they are either extremely happy or extremely sad. On hindsight, maybe they are just trying to use the liquor to figure out if they are truly happy or sad inside. However, Im sure that everyone enjoy themselves in this beer buzz session. See our group photo above:)

BlogThings Quizzes

2008-05-17T19:35:00.003+08:00

I was reading Merlinda's blog when her blog post reminded me of a rather interesting site blogthings with many kinds of quizzes. So I decided to follow her lead and come up with five quizzes to entertain the readers here as well. Let's have some fun reading and doing quizzes then. =P

Your Power Color Is Gold

At Your Highest:
You are engrossed in passions that mentally stimulate you.

At Your Lowest:
You seek thrills and neglect what's important in your life.

In Love:
You see dating as adventure and approach it with an open attitude.

How You're Attractive:
You passion for life makes others passionate about you.

Your Eternal Question:
"Am I Having Fun?"

You Are Chocolate Chip Ice Cream

You are kind, popular, and generous.

You tend to be successful at anything you try.
A social butterfly, you are great at entertaining a crowd.

You are most compatible with strawberry ice cream.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

Your Luck Quotient: 71%

You have a high luck quotient.
More often than not, you've felt very lucky in your life.
You may be randomly lucky, but it's probably more than that.
Optimistic and open minded, you take advantage of all the luck that comes your way.

How Lucky Are You?

What Your Latte Says About You

You are very decadent in all aspects of your life. You never scale back, and you always live large.
You are a very frivolous person. You don't take anything too seriously. Why should you?
You have a good deal of energy, but you pace yourself. You never burn out too fast.
You're addicted to caffeine. There's no denying it.
You are a child at heart, and you don't ever miss the opportunity to do something playful.
You are deep and thoughtful, but you are never withdrawn.

What Does Your Latte Say About You?

Caffe Vanilla Frappuccino

Smooth and sweet, you fit in to almost any crowd. No one would suspect you of being a coffee tweaker!

What Flavor Frappuccino Are You?

Song Recommendation For May 2008: 擦肩而过 By 李圣杰

2008-05-15T21:49:00.005+08:00

我爱着谁爱到我有点醉
告诉我你是谁能够把我让我变不对
你不会累但我却爱你爱到好累
从没有为了谁不顾安危付出一切

站在这平衡点我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见只能够靠感觉

他不会是个好男人也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过

你听我说你不要这么做
你不要看着我说你已经知道怎么做
你很难受我愿意陪你一起承受
只要你不怕痛再多坎坷我都陪你走

站在这平衡点我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见只能够靠感觉

他不会是个好男人也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过

他不会是个好男人也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过

就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过
嘿呜~~~~

Iron Man (2008) Movie

2008-05-15T21:46:00.000+08:00

The movie was quite good, considering how the lead actor (Robert Downey Jr) managed to portray both the confident, high-flying military industrialist, Tony Stark, as well as the reflective, humanistic superhero in disguise. I loved his humour and also the way the movie balanced a gently evasive but subtly romantic relationship with long-time personal assistant Pepper Potts (played by Gwyneth Paltrow).

The experimentation with the Iron Man suit in his laboratory was really funny, especially how he communicates and chides his robotic assistants. The villiany in the story was quite predictable with a profit-oriented uncle versus a transformed and humanitarian Tony Stark and climaxed into a showdown as both slugged it out with their versions of the Iron Man.

Don't forget to pay attention to Tony Stark's speeches in the movie, especially the last one. Very memorable and unique - gives thought to the kind of mayhem and chaos he always throws around whenever he gives speeches.

Hahaha. The 4 star movie is definitely worth watching.

Sometimes

2008-05-12T23:16:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I wonder if i'm meant to be alone

Sometimes I wonder if there really is anyone out there for me

Sometimes I wonder if there really is THE ONE.

I used to be a real sucker for the lovey doveys. But as the years went by, the conception of THE ONE just started fading away into the wilderness.

I suppose sooner or later we'll come to a stage where both friends and relatives start with the questionings of "when's ur turn to get married?"

I'm really sorry but my personal take on this is that "I dont think I will. Why? Because I dont think there's someone out there who loves me that much that he will be willing to commit and devote his life to being with me". Its a sad notion and though everyone chooses to not believe my same belief but rather put their faith in, "dont be ridiculous, you'll definately get hitched", I still dont think so. This belief, I would think, is a contributing factor to me avoiding weddings like the plague.

Even just the last month, whilst I was watching that new TV show, "A Wedding Affair" hosted by hosts Utt and Jaymee Ong, there was this feeling of jealousy dwelling within. Worst still was the feelings that came when I caught "Top 10 Celebrity Weddings" or something like that. They all looked so much in love. Awww. I couldnt bear to watch anymore and switched channels.

Sad right? Yeap. I think so too. But one still has to have contingency planning in the event the worst does form true, hence, its time to SAVE, SAVE, SAVE!

关心我的朋友...

2008-05-12T22:09:00.001+08:00

最近还是忙碌工作... 但是越来越有挑战性了. 很喜欢自己的工作, 但是难免还是有低潮的时候.在这个时候, 我就有一般很爱护我的家人, 好朋友与同事.你们知道你是谁啦! 谢谢~地球不断的旋转... 只是活了三分之一, 就体验了生与死, 乐与苦... 我最害怕的是"病". 听到了好友的mummy要动手术, 心理一点不安. 希望身边的人开开心心, 健健康康. 活着一定要精彩, 想做什么, 就去做, 只要不伤害人, 做违背良心的事就好.

Movie: The Leap Year

2008-05-12T21:57:00.004+08:00

After watching The Leap Year, sometimes i really wonder what is marriage about? recently always into contacts with wedding magz, videography(animation), wedding dinner, wedding prepz etc. what will my life become if i really get married? *shaKe the idea off my mind*

let's get into the story... to be fair for ppl who want to watch it. I'll grade 3.5/5. Guy might not like the movies, bcos seems quite boring if you're not into love story(marriage) person. but it can be so true that this might happen in the reality. There was a person in my mind when i watch this show. Lilin went crazy over a guy which she can meet once every 4yrs, a totally stranger yet there's somehow a bond in between them. She rather gave up the guy who love her since young & the guy who wants to marry her, that's really need a lot of courage man! Doubt not much ppl can do it. Yeap, go for itz or else you will leave with regret!

My dream of building my family(Is just a dream for me, not in reality bcos weddings is like plague to me!): It'll be the kind where i prepare the dinner for my hubby & children or hubby do the cooking. hee! then weekends, my hubby will bring whole family out for meals. Once a fornight, dont want anyhow spend, hehe! then... must have personal social life, allows me to participate some activities & friends gathering. A Big NO to violence... instead of quarrels, shall analyze de problem & solve it together. Understand everyone has it temper, and it'll be good to have a level of tolerance. The unhappiness mustnt last more than a day. =)

Cheers to happy life! 希望周围的朋友也幸福!